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Saturday, September 30, 2006

so ytd was lydia's birthday!...in sch sang for her 3 times of bdae song le..=)...den aft sch..me n bestie wenta marina sq to buy lyd's bdae present.hahas..bought a tweety cup.den wenta bugis to buy another tweety pillow for her..hahas...was so tired by de time we reached her hse..hahas..met guanghao andy and meng chin at de bus stop and we went in together....at first..me n guan felt rather outcast cos we dunoe em well..but soon..we were soon joking ard..hahas....so we slacked dere....eat..tok crap...."play"...hahas..ate cake....bid lyd byebye....den...oya!some of de teachers like wilson lee..chia...duncan,etc etc was dere for BBQ lahs..hahas..so qiao..hahas...ok..so ard 11....we left castlegreen lahs..den by de time i reached home..its ard 12 le..hahas...was so tired dat i slept immediately after my bath..

morning woke up and slacked..=)...den wenta tpy to study with mabel n her friend(xuehua)...den..erms ya...was so cold can?hahas..ok..so ard 5 plus.we left and i wenta ah ma hse..hahas...celeb melynda's bdae(advanced)..hahas...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IRENE AND SZEHAN!!!

smile like crazy @ 9:06:00 PM

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Thursday, September 28, 2006

hmms...morning dan was sick...ok so. din PE-ed cos i feel like studying rather than pe-ing.DEN...1st period of goeg was gone cos goh forgot abt us...den 2nd lesson...jasmine wenta find him..hahas..maths was OK....de rest of de day oso OK...hmms...geog....i get 39.5/50...hmms....map readin-9/10...section A-6.5/15..section B-24/25...whoa..i cant belive my map n section B is so gd!but damn it..my section A sux.hais..dere goes my a1!hais.so...hmms...aft sch...bestie n i wenta tpy....me in hopin to find phy tys...BUT..to no avail...so yups..came my hse...we ate.we did some clothes-matching for lydia's party..hahas...took such a long time lahs.she loan clothes and earrings and belt frm me=)...aft dat...we did something very special for someone...=P

tml is lydia tan ming hui bdae!

smile like crazy @ 8:15:00 PM

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

how i wish a mad driver would charge his car towards me and help me end my worries.

damn...and hving a serious breakdown can?hais...am really disappointed in myself...and i mean it.why de hell did i get so poor results this time round.LOOK..my english is estimated to be a c5..chinese is oreadi b3.both maths is a1 (but itx definitely nt my targets-i mean de marks)....science-b3..i may have improved but its definitely nt my targets..humanities-a2 but oso nt wat i aimed.ART...forget it...this is de worse time ever can?wth....so its like overall i gt two bloody c5?wth lahs.hais...someone!just knock me over can?PLS?im suffering frm depression!

girl ah...u beta dun cry..cos u hv a special ability...when u cry..u hv de ability to make me cry toO...smile and i will oso smile=D

smile like crazy @ 9:07:00 PM

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Tuesday, September 26, 2006

morning wenta sch...den...hmms....was so damn tired can?i practically almost slept in phy class lahs.hmMs.den well....din get back geog cos dey hvn mark finish..hmms.den english...well...my marks sux lahs can...hais.

and i swear i will read the 1000-paged dictionary!

smile like crazy @ 7:19:00 PM

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smile like crazy @ 7:11:00 PM

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Monday, September 25, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOKE GUAN!!

today's bestie's bdae..=)..happy happy bdae..last night stayed up till 12 to wish bestie happy bdae lahs...im 1st....hehe..

ok...so dan was early today..VERY early..den hmms....ss i got 68/100...emaths and amaths 80 ++...chem...i PASSED!damn...so unbelievable lahs can.hahas...onli 6 ppl passed and im one of those?sumore i 3rd..BUT..de thing is i onli gt 58..hahas...damn..den physics pulled me up..although i din study at all..but i still gt a2 for physics lahs..meaning for science overall...i gt b3!hahahas...im so happy lahs.
aft sch..went town-ing wif bestie and lyd....wenta kfc and we had a heavy lunch lahs.den.wenta heeren-hmv..to get lyd's de dvd(drumline)omg...hahas..den wenta take neos..shall upload em ltr...den....we sat at de mrt station n tok...=DD..hmm....we hvn buy anything for guan cos cant see anything nice...hahas....so....will be gvin her belated de lahs..HAHA..

loves bestie n lyd=DD

smile like crazy @ 6:35:00 PM

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Sunday, September 24, 2006

erms..morning woke up and i studied!
summarizing wat i did ytd was :
1.all de mcq qn in my new chem tys.and i mean ALL!onli some i dunoe hw to do lahs.
2.the whole chap of logarithmic frm my tys
3.half chap of circular measure
4.8 chaps of chem section A

today i did:
1.3 or 4 chaps of section A of chem
2.RV

omg..compare the two days lahs..hahas..such a big diff...hahas..hmms...just now went out to marina sq to shop....bought 3 tops.HAHAA...wanted to buy slip-ons...but..couldn find any i like.ahaa....hmms....
next..i wan to shop for denim skirt and...i very long nv go shop for mickey's stuff le..hais.

no more weather PLS.

smile like crazy @ 6:23:00 PM

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i must admit..im missing dat somebody...

smile like crazy @ 10:21:00 AM

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Saturday, September 23, 2006

hmms...morning wenta ah ma hse and studied....well...den duncan smsed me "hey..u fail p2 by one mark lehs..."...den i was like whoa..so sadded.but i calculated and sms me"hais..nvm lahs..i still gt b3 for overall"..den he sae.."how?"..i could onli say "lidat lors...wat can i do?"..den he replied.."hahahas...u're such a gd liar..u told me u will fail..but u get 66/80.even better den ur paper 1 lors..well done.im proud of u."....wth...he bluffed me!!omg....and i cant believe i passed and got a1!!meaning overall..i get 82!a1!!!hahas..okok..so i "scolded" duncan for bluffing me..hahas....itx nt meant to be funny lor..i think if he made it worse den failing by 1 mark..i would cry..ahahs...okok...so yarhs.....den studied chem and log today..weekeng called me to ask abt a qn den i had a hard time explainig to him de ans cos he have a visualising prob lahs..hahas....he must practise more to overcome dat.hahas..=)..so yarhs...ard 8....came home n i slacked...

damnit..im starting to miss that somebody...

smile like crazy @ 9:03:00 PM

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Friday, September 22, 2006

morning woke up and used com...den ard 10...left hse to meet him...den we wenta orchard..wenta cine..but de b1 and level 4 de tix station nt open yet..but de two dumb of us forget there is de level 5 counter..so we waited n waited..den finally we rem...hahas..we had wanted to watch haunted apartment but i cant cos dere very strict..is nc16..im still 15!den he was like blaming me for being small..dotss...den we finally decided to watch "john tucker must die"..well..so while waiting for de movie..we wenta burger king to eat (i mean he eat..nt me..i dun like burger king)..hahas...den wenta arcade to play de foto thingy...den finally time for movie..so we wenta in and de movie started..well..de movie was abt a guy named john tucker being de hottest guy in sch; plays de basketball..and basically..he has many flings...hahas..he cheated their feelings by telling them dey are his onli love and blahblahblah..den soon one day..de 3 girls gt to noe abt it..so together with a girl named kate...dey came up with plans to make a mockery out of john...so yarhs...and dey made john fell in love with kate..and in de end..kate told him abt de truth..but the thing is john had reali fallen in love with kate and was willing to change for her..but still..dey remained as frens...oOo...so sadded huh?yarhs..ard lidat lahs..lazy to elaborate..BUT..gt a few parts very funny n disgusting..like part where de girl wanted to teach kate how to kiss...and wel...de two of them reali kiss!damn...so eee...another was dat wearing g-string became a trend when it was supposingly to be a mockery..haha..okok..enuf of that..so de both of us.or rather..de whole lot of people in de cinema were laughing our heads off lahs.=)
aft de movie..we wenta taka to eat old changi(me) and ice cream(him)..aft which.we wenta marina sq cos i need to buy shane his bdae present(damn belated lahs)..den...wenta suntec to wok...den aiya..basically..today we wok reali alot...den cos frm morning to just now..i kp suaning him..so gt one period of time..he pretended to be angry..dumb asshole..aft dat..he couldn take it anymore so he burst out laughing..dumb people gt dumb brain..ahahas..=)..den at de end..we were too tired to wok so we sat dwn n rest...den aft dat..came home...=)

stupid people gt stupid brains..=)..
and..im nt short ok?dumb...

smile like crazy @ 6:39:00 PM

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Thursday, September 21, 2006

morning woke up and i slacked all de way until i stepped out of my hse..n dat was ard 1 plus.i wenta bishan..met sure..den wenta her hse....gt to noe yvonne and her stead who was oso frm bhps de glory 4..hahas..so yarhs..wenta her hse..ate maggie mee..hahas...yummy..den we took pics..den we wenta northpoint cos sure gt something to gv her fren.den its like whoa..she so excited and shy....hahas..okok..shall not elaborate...look at de fotos...and u will noe why i love her..

i say..i reali am so glad she's my girlfriend.de best one toO.

smile like crazy @ 8:38:00 PM

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

ok..so today is de last paper le!yeas.BUT..gd luck to lyd who still has her practical...same goes for de rest of de pure science students!ok..so aft sch which is ard 9am?hahas..me guan entong winnie shipei and sarah wenta mac to eat...den..me n bestie wenta marina sq to wokwok n take foto..den ard 2...came my hse..n we uploaded all de fotos...=)

two-in-one...this foto shows somehow like one person de reflection nia..but actualli its de two of us lahs..it made us look sooooo thin lahs can..n long...hahas..

we put all de fotos together as one pic..but...to have a clearer view..i posted up all de fotos below..

we were trying to be bo-chap with each oth..but this can nv happen.

we were tired...

it's us..and i love her..

so sian..ok...its fake cos i'll never feel sian with her ard.

she's camera shy..as if!

she started it first.

we wil miss each oth..date each oth out in de future.

hw dare she..

she forced me to do this.

i love her and i mean it.

deep thoughts of her in my mind.

i seriously cant do without her.

dun cry.im always here.u cry.i cry.there's always me to share ur sorrows.

besties for life...

de fierce her...dun provoke her or else.

de silly her

de cute her

she told me to be a supergirl

heyheyhey..

she..must be thinking of me.

LOVE HER de most

she's secretly smiling..

dats her..so engrossed in checking someone's profile on friendster..shh...dun disturb her.

well....dats all!=)

smile like crazy @ 4:55:00 PM

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Tuesday, September 19, 2006

no more no more no more weather.PLS?

hey..hvn been blogging..was busy with some exams u noe.
hmm..so on sat...i wenta mummy's workplc to slack..on sunday..i stayed at home n did art....ytd..was science practical exam..well...it sux can?hais..am prepared to fail science...ok..so aft de exam....had de lock=up in de hall for ard 4 hours or so?bcos dey were afraid of leakage of qn..yarhs..so me n kitpin tok n tok n tok..hahas..aft sch..stayed in sch to seek help frm duncan for maths..ard 3 hours or so?

morning...wenta sch..studied maths...well..de amaths paper..i think i flunk it..serious...i nv do finish lahs..even art i oso nv finish..damn it..for art..i was seriously toooo cold till my hands were numbed and i was unable to paint..hais.so aft dat..came home..

met him to return de bk....i had tried to say something..but all i could manage was a "thanks".he too onli said dat..damn..since when we became like this?when?ok..i noe ppl's gg to tell me..since dat day...BUTBUTbut...it's oreadi over,aint?ok...so i guess im right...a scar will always be a scar..no handiplast can cure dat..
but..hais.nvm...i wan us to be back like in de past...no awkard moments.no shyness.no secrets.no relationship feelings.just purely a relationship of 12 years of friendship.but this...seem so faraway frm us now..as days passed..we seem to be drifting apart...seriously...we are.we really are.when i saw you just now.i remember de days i studied with you..i remembered de little moments dat u made my day like de fact dat u rem my love for choco?..like de fact dat u bother to send me a msg every night?but..these are no longer impt..u no longer is de guy i know.de guy who make me feel gving weather up is a rightg choice.no longer.feelings;mixed feelings came gushing at me just now..i knew i wasn prepared to see you..neither are you...but we had no choice cos of de bk...i know...if u n i had a choice..we would rather not de presence of de bk..this way..we wun start de quarrel cos i wudn hv asked you for it.and i wudn hav met you..i wudn have to return you de bk today.n...hais..forget it.

weather...i couldn help but think of him...i have to admit..right frm de day dat i saw him days n days ago.....i cudn bring myself to forget him since den.i hv been thinking of him as a friend.as his admirer.i realised i was just one of his many friends..i knew dat but i still cant forget him.mayb this is true love?to give but never expect to get something in return.but why isit dat true love always happens on one sided?i shall just try to get it over and done with.

no more weather pls.

smile like crazy @ 5:05:00 PM

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Saturday, September 16, 2006

HE APPEARED IN MY DREAMS!

omg...hw can weather appear in my dream!and when i said he appeared...he reali took up the whole dream...almost....only the last part wasn him.hais.i suddenly gt the urge to msg him but i noe i cant,im shudn, and im nt allowed.i promised myself dat no more connection wif him...so yarhs...im still trying to forget him but its just dat he had to had appeared in my dreams...hais.

smile like crazy @ 9:16:00 AM

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Friday, September 15, 2006

hv i ever mention dat i think mike he jun xiang is handsome?well..i doubt so...BUT..i wan say..he's really a hunk.hahas...i have some pics of him....n am gg to post them up...i mean..abit..cos i lazy to post all=P

notice his eyes PLSSSS.oOohh..i love him!

smile like crazy @ 10:38:00 PM

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no more WEATHER pls.

so morning wenta study wif syarif...den he went prayer...so i waited for him at kfc..BUT..aft dat..he decided not to study le so we separated our ways...i wenta find mabel and sure to study...hahas...very long nv tok to mabel le..hahas...hmm..so we studied and crapped alot...jiayuan was dere wif her fren oso..oya...speaking of dat..morning i met swee ying at bk station...hahas..ok..so yarhs...at ard 4.30...we decided to go den mabel wenta take bus..me n sure wenta novena to wok...den wok alittle den went to mrt station and took 3 or 4 fotos..den yarhs....came home..at bk...saw lydia(chua)..hahas....so i came home n i think i practically slacked!

i wana sae something..shan wee is soooo..handsome..can?he has got de nicest dj voice toO...butbutbut...elvin ng is still ranked top!hahas...hunks!

no more "tian qi" PLS?

smile like crazy @ 5:52:00 PM

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Thursday, September 14, 2006

no more WEATHER pls.

ok..so morning had chem exam..damn it...i think i flunk it...dots....den aft dat..wenta mac to eat den yarhs...studied abit before gg to amk library.so me n kitpin studied...yarhs...den...came home..i gt a1 for emaths..!yeas.

so...now..are we considered ok le?i told u it hurts and it seemed so real....yet in de end..u said u had mood swing and was sry and din mean wat u said...damn...at dat moment..i was damn angry lahs..and i decided to start standing up for myself...in de end..we nearly nearly fell out...but....agn..in de end...we ok le....but as i have said ytd...a scar will always be a scar..no medicine can cure dat.and it still hurts.

yeas.tml studying wif uncle!hahas....kinda miss studying with him!

no more WEATHER!!!!!PLS?

smile like crazy @ 7:37:00 PM

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Wednesday, September 13, 2006

no more WEATHER pls.

so aft i reach home..i studied chem lahs..den wneta out to mit n take de bk..de aft he started de "quarrel"..i din reali stay focus on chemistry...i was thinking abt him.damn it.
so..ok..practically...2dae was fine except dat..yarhs..

so now wat?am i even supposed to say sorry?nono...i hate de word "sorry"....it's been a frequent word i always use in de past...i dun wan use it anymore...but...i dun wan our friendship to go down de drain...ard 12 years of friendship...n just becos of an exam..he has fallen out wif me..can he listen to me?or can he ever come across my blog;my post?i wan him to noe..he's nt a bridge.i hv nv regard him as one.i mean.it was him who asked me not to buy de book,right?so now dat i need it, i followed his advice n i asked him for it..but he practically lost his mind and told me off..i mean...aft i met him...i had sense dat he gt dere in a rush..so i msg him to say "sorry for de trouble"...but he practically changed into a diff person..he said.."would u gv a damn abt it?im just a bridge for you to pass you olevels.*blahblahblah*"....so wats de meaning of this?he's a Align Center

ccusing me lahs.i seriously nv treat him as a tool...i enjoy studying with him..i enjoy his accompany..i seriously LOVE our friendship...but he....misunderstood..and so i replied him saying i hv no intention of dat..he actualli said "fine!"....wth...so...i reali duno wat to do..i msg him to ask him wat time he wants his bk tml...n he's nt replying me..damn..must things be this way?why must you torture me?..u made me want to forget weather..u make me think dat bcos of you..i can forget weather...you make me think dat i finally found a gd guy who's willing to wait..i tot i....hais.but now..it's so contradicting.i was thinking....mayb we din match at all..n mayb i shudn gv up weather becos of you..mayb i shud gv up on him becos of myself!..i seriously dunoe wat to do with you..

no more WEATHER pls.

smile like crazy @ 6:38:00 PM

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wat the hell did i do wrong tis time?
it's like....for no reason...aft i borrowed de bk..he said he was just a bridge for me to pass my o's...he said i treated him dat way...and when did de hell did i did dat?i was damn pissed off lahs..ok...i tell you..aft tml morning, aft i've returned u de bloody book...im nt bothering you anymore..happy?.....u started this.nt me.you made me cry,u bloody person.and so.i noe you will be happy dat im getting out of ur world.i,chua xiuzhen, am nt interfering, am not gg to bother you with my studies, am not gg to consider anything all about you,ok?

wateva you may do aftwards....it's no longer impt..bcos you have left a scar on ur name.

smile like crazy @ 3:30:00 PM

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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

no more WEATHER PLS.

hmm...so i woke up at 7 today n went to sch at 10...well....im NOT late..i mean.dun get de idea dat im late for sch...no..it's becos....my paper starts at 11.30 lahs.hahas...so yarhs..de paper was easy but as usual...i was killed by careless mistakes careless mistakes and still careless mistakes...so far i hv dunoe hw many wrong cos of caculation mistake lahs.hais.forget abt my target man.im disappointed in myself actualli...at home...when i do papers..i hardly have any careless mistakes..but whenever im sitting for a paper..dere's bound to be many many many stupid mistakes...i think im stressing myself too much n im too nervous le...one day...i'LL be killed by my carelessness.hais.PPL..wish me dat tml i wun be killed in my own hands agn.damn it.
so aft exam...me n bestie wenta tpy to eat sushi.hahas....so yarhs....after much tagging and pulling..i finally decided to send bestie off to her bus stop...BUT..in de end when i gt back to mine...i missed de bus.hais.so i came home and i hardly studied at all....ok..i was slacking,i admit.

and so....wish me luck lahs.

no more WEATHER PLS.

smile like crazy @ 10:35:00 PM

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Monday, September 11, 2006

NO more weather PLS.

so well....i made several STUPID and careless mistakes for maths...doubt i will hv my A's.hais.ok..wateva....go geog was erm..OK?except dat i almost froze?hahas..cold sia..den aft dat...guan acc me wait for duncan...den so i asked duncan some qn...den we decided to go home BUT it rained so heavily and de rain was inconsistent such dat it came n went came n went..so when it was smaller, we decided to "chong"...but to our stupidness.....it rained damn heavily we could reach the shelter lahs...wateva..and de infuriating thing is that.....when we reached de station..damn it..no rain le!haa...so i came home n i did p nc..i sux at dat chap..hais..

thks=)...but no need go fetch me de.=PP...

NO more weather PLS.

smile like crazy @ 11:44:00 PM

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Sunday, September 10, 2006

wish me luck for tml's prelims!

ok so..morning woke up and did some maths paper 1.den wenta mit wg at de bus stop to get frm him some things..den came home n studied geog..slept for half an hour...studied eat studied...dots...SO BORING!hahas..but no choice hvn i?hais.wish me luck for tml!

well...ytd de BBQ...was fun!weiming and kianchen gt food for me jez minqi(although is we force em de lahs)...but..hahas...=DD...weiming gt me something which i didn noe wat it was..n before i see wat was it...de yiqian took it away!dots..so yarhs...we ate and ate n ate...den dere was de birthday bash for yan wai!well...she blew de candles and..next moment..she became a honey bunny cos yiqian, with honey all over his hands...wenta do a "facial" for yanwai...haa...so dey were chasing each oth and den...time to "play" with her cake!it was her face to de cake agn n agn n AGN!hahas...but too bad de cake wasn creamy kind..well...shikin den took de cake to yan wai's face lahs.SO FUN!hahas..ok...so dey kept playing...den cos dere was a cat, so i wenta in de room to watch them play chinese chess...so fun!zhanglin beat weiming in both game!den i dunoe who win for de rest of de games..i mean i din even knew who was playing!cos yeas.was watching tv..hahas..so yarhs...at de last part..me lydia queena jez minqi syl became interested in kc's fone..i mean taking pic with his fone!hahas..so fun!shall upload de fotos oth day lahs.=D.den..yarh...we left at 10...i mean me jez minqi lydia..hahas...cos mr lee send us home!well..mr lee took de wrong route n therefore...making a BIGBIGBIG turn before reaching my hse lahs...so yarhs...overall...i enjoyed de BBQ lahs.thks for inviting me lahs!

******R....fine...i saw you again...for de umpteen times in my life...i have been dying to see you..but i controlled it quite well...i mean..my eyes didn wenta searching for u..dey din..i swear..it was aft much time dat i realised u were almost beside me...and dat..for sure..i could sense ur presence even if u din realised me....SO..i saw u playing de ******!ok...wat can i say...i tot u were dashing agn!wateva it is..i realised aft wat happened.....it seems that de "lesser" i felt..de amt dat was gone was back to me agn....but i know i cant con'td like this.i must gv u up...but....i think i need more time to get over you and find myself another nice guy.yarhs...gv me time...

countdown to bestie's birthday: 15 days
" to lyd's birthdae: 19 days
" to weegee's birthday:7 days

dat little amt dat was initially gone is back to me agn.wth!

smile like crazy @ 9:14:00 PM

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Saturday, September 09, 2006

no more WEATHER pls.

ok...i started off with a gd day studying at ljs wif weegee...den blahblahblah..den went for BBQ..ok..met minqi and jez at amk before we took 88 to pasir ris...den yarhs...we saw lydia on de bus and well..de four of us wenta de chalet together..ok..so when we reached dere...all of em were dere oreadi lahs.well.....yarhs...so blahblahblah..(i shall blog abt it mayb ltr or tml?cos i nt in de mood)..ok....and mr lee sent us 4 home.

when i reached home...my day TOTALLY changed.TOTALLY.bcos of dat stupid wateva bro he is..OK..he sux!FUCK U!BLOODY HELL!!kao bei!ARGH!bloody hell u...ok...so wat?i pressed de door bell...SO?wats ur prob with shouting at me for pressing de bloody doorbell!!!F-U!i reach home onli den u shout....bloody hell....ok...so i kept silent and i went into my room with anger.DEN...mummy was asking him wat happened..and he began to shout again...SO..i couldn take it anymore!bloody hell....i stomped out of de room and i shouted at him.."WAT?press doorbell oso gt prob mehs?HUH!!!wat har!wat!wat!"...so de two of us nearly gt into a cat fight.and dat was when papa came out n hurled at him...den de fight was no longer between me n him..but him n papa...so dey quarrelled..and they almost fought.SERIOUS.look at his bloody face lahs.FUCK!u noe..at that instant..i rather he did not came out AT ALL!i had peace when he wasn here!so he gave dat bloody look and he was so agitated lahs.i dunoe wats de prob wif him?i mean....for wat de hell is he so agitated for?FUCK!let me tell u..this is not my fault and i think dere's no nid for me to apologise to u for shouting at u....becos im nt in de wrong!..u are!i tell u!u ARE!u ARE THE ONE!...i have been tolerating u again and again....but this time i cudn take it anymore so i was just doin wat i have always wanted to do.i dun gv a bloody damn abt u.OK?i rather u stay dere all ur life!gv me peace!....i dun live to owe u a debt.i dun owe u anything so dun gv me or de rest dat bloody look of urs!to hell with u....wateva u do..just pls dun pull us down..OK?rem.u made my day today!u SPOIL my bloody day!fuck u..

NO MORE WEATHER PLS.

smile like crazy @ 11:25:00 PM

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Friday, September 08, 2006

DAMN.
i think i made him angry.
how.
i feel so bad le lahs.
dots.
BUT.
i think he's faking it.
or mayb he isn.
shit
BUT i think by tml.
he'll be de same him agn!
hahas

gosh.ive gt mixed feelings.one moment,i think he's de guy dat can make me forget weather.but de other,i think...he's nt reali compatible with me.he's not de ideal one.yea.he cliques with me.BUT dat doesn mean he's de one that cliques with me in all ways.hmms.wateva it is.im persistent and i insist that i MUST get over weather SOON.

shit..tml will be seeing him agn.gosh.

smile like crazy @ 10:41:00 PM

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NO more weather PLS.

ok..so duncan was late today and so..classes was late...which led to me meeting weegee late...which oso meant i ate at a later time....which also mean that i started studying later..and studying later would still mean i end my studying time at 5.30!!!HAHA.....so for short,i studied half an hour lesser today!okok...damn...just now..i nearly freeze inside ljs lahs. OK...so hmms....just now i wok home de path...so many cats lahs..OMG!argh..

no WEATHER pls.

smile like crazy @ 6:21:00 PM

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Thursday, September 07, 2006

IM BORED AGAIN.
but luckily bestie is on de fone wif me.
whee.
im like slacking?
dots.
yeas.
paul twohill is finally out of s'pore idol!
FINALLY!
yeas.ok.
im bored.
tml is another day for mugging with him.
dots.

smile like crazy @ 11:59:00 PM

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no more weather PLS.

hmms...morning wenta sch for amaths...den...wenta tpy to mit wg...OK...so we studied dao 5.30 lidat...damn..i had a migrane AGAIN!hmms...so yarhs...aft dat..we left for interchange..den....we waited for 139...before he went for tuition..so..he's late agn....den i came home and i slacked and did abit of art...abit onli...hais.

no more weather PLS.

smile like crazy @ 7:09:00 PM

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Wednesday, September 06, 2006

im BORED.
im realli BORED.
bestie will be calling me only at 11!
damn
and for another half an hour.
i will be slacking
hais.
AM realli bored.
worse den spatting flies
bcos.
dere are nt even flies ard!
damn.
i miss many ppl.
i wana date many ppl out.
BUT.hvta wait aft my O's.
damn it.
huishan would be de first i would date.
or mayb my girlfriend Sure.
or mayb bestie.
PERHAPS uncle?(i wana go zoo!)
and he has de tix.
wat fun!
im looking forward to it!
damn.
i wana go on a shoPping date tOO.
BUT before i go on a shopping spree.
i must save $$ first.
and i must buy presents for some.
like.SHANE(belated)
SURE..hui.bestie.LYD.
sumore.
sumore.
AND STILL SUMORE!
damn.
IM REALLI BORED.

smile like crazy @ 10:28:00 PM

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NO more weather PLS.

morning woke up at ard 9..den changed and left hse for sch...had emaths lesson...afterwhich.stayed back to ask duncan some maths qn...and den..i came home....i did not study!shit!instead i slacked!damn it.OK..so dats all for today.

ps.im not a CAT mr nice guy. AND im nt a dog supporter.(:
AND.u FINALLY admitted dat you are a kan men gou.
BUT i noe why u admitted to it.
you admitted it cos.
i said something.
wateva.

no WEATHER pls.

smile like crazy @ 7:12:00 PM

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Tuesday, September 05, 2006

im seriously gvin weather up..till then.im nt yet a DOG SUPPORTER.dun be so nice to me PLS.u said it's hard not to treat me nice...i agree BUT i just cant stand u being so nice to me cos i feel bad towards you.BUT.rest assure..i will try to be a girl with no WEATHER in her life.after which,she will try to be a DOG SUPPORTER:)..she promises to try...but..no gurantees..oOps.

smile like crazy @ 11:01:00 PM

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NO more weather PLS.

hmms...2dae morning wenta sch for chem n phy practical..damn..it was freaking sian lahs.hmms....den...met weegee at tpy ljs...ate n well..studied...damn..it was sooo cold lahs...but poor him..he din bring his jacket..hahas..hmms..his frens were dere oso n well...as expected...deir mouth went hay-wire and de topic was on us agn...okok..so we studied and well...den ard 5.20....we couldn take de temp anymore..so we like...left de place...den dao interchange le...he want send me up de bus before he go tuition..BUT his tuition starts at 6 lahs..den dat time was 5.30 nia..den i cant possibly pang-seh him mahs...den cos he hungry..SO..i gd mahs...so i acc him go mac..den he dun me watch me eat...so i bought a apple pie to eat lahs...den whoa...damn hot lahs...den when he eat finish his burger...i hvn eat even half of de apple pie lahs..so erm..i quite full le..so i gave him de rest of de pie=P...den aft which..we wenta 139 dere agn..BUT de queue was too long so we decided to wait for de next one...den yarhs...when we were waiting..we saw huiting grace sherry..hahas....=P....den gosh...by de time 139 came...weegee was late le but he said nvm...ok den...hahas..migrane is back!hais.

whywhywhy!!!???i have oreadi decided to gv u up le...BUT y dun u let me suceed?u hv to let me see u agn n agn everytm i want to gv u up..n even we meet each oth..it's onli a HI and a BYE..wth lahs...ok....yes..i love u..but im tryin not to le...PLS.get out of my life so dat oths can come in lahs..hais..dun appear infront of me unless ive forgotten all abt u..thanks.
andandAND...pls..dun say "imissu"..cos i will regard it as "im is su"..HAHA..

-no more weather PLS-

smile like crazy @ 7:57:00 PM

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Monday, September 04, 2006

my purpose of this post...is to OFFICIALLY announced that im gg to gv up on weather le.well..this time.im serious abt it.real serious.not like in de past.i did said i want to gv up agn n agn but i din....THIS TIME..its gona be true..i have seriously decided to gv him up...firstly...one year loving him had been a long period but yet de relationship between us did not improve yet deterioate..it did.well..secondly..i have tot it thru..seriously thru...im nt compatible wif him.yea.dats damn true lahs.i did realised dat some time ago but i culdn bring myself to forget him.so i somehow prefer to overlook dat matter..n yarhs...im nt compatible wif him.damn seriously not lahs..im like this yet he's lidat....lastly..i would like to gv *ahem a chance aft my O's..4 years of liking me has been long..he's been MR nice guy to me.and hmms...he's nt a bad guy i can say.AND well..yarhs..i wan to try gving him a chance aft de O's..BUT to do that..i hv to forget abt weather first ..otherwise...it would be unfair to *ahem if i accpt wif him lahs..yarhs..i have to try my best to forget weather.i know.u know.that it's a hard task for me cos i love weather damn much lahs.BUT.i noe i must stop now cos as days pass by...i love him deeper lahs.so yarhs..i know i shud hv gven up days n months ago(mayb shudn started at all)...BUT its easier said den done...i may not promise dat i would no longer like weather by tml morning le.BUT at least.i can promise.dat i would love him a little lesser lahs.i reali wan do dat.serious.am damn serious abt it.ppl...trust me..i would be able to forget him before my O's...=)

wish me luck!and trust me!

smile like crazy @ 10:47:00 PM

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de weather changed my heart...but im gona change it back...

hmms..so morning i woke up and went to sch...well...for de 1 hour..i was explaining chem to kitpin..aft which...i asked mrs cheam some qns..den i went off to mit wg..well....he waited for me at mrt station DEN we wenta kfc to study...damn..it was freaking cold lahs..and so...we had our lunch ard 1 plus...damn yummy lahs...sumore its hot..den can pass heat to us....hahahas...ok lahs...so we marathorn dao.......5.30...den cant take it le...so we went home.....THANKS..but no nid to send me home...cos totally diff direction lahs..=)..came home n slacked n ate chocolates!yumm =P...

_____*weather*_____

smile like crazy @ 6:05:00 PM

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Sunday, September 03, 2006

de weather changed my heart...but im gona change it back...

well...morning woke up and did abit of art...den ard 2.30 lidat..left house to meet weegee at tpy ljs...den yarhs..tpy was damn crowded cos of de superstar thingy...and so..i had to squeeze my way to de ljs..well....he was dere oreadi...den yarhs..we studied chem agn...de maths(he)..geog(me)..den well....BUT dere was disruption frm his sch frens...dey were disturbing us abt dose stuff..u noe....BGR..BUT NONO...we are not..we are purely friends...=)...den yarhs..we were freezing cold lahs...den yarhs...we left at ard 7.30...den yarhs..we wnet popular to get my blu-tack...den we wenta take bus 31....yarhs...so he send me home...den yarhs..on de way..scary!gt dogs and cats!argh!....den luckily i reached home safely...hahas...=)..thks gee!hmms..

i hvta admit u're mr nice guy...BUT..it just seems to me dat i seriously treat u onli as a fren..it never occured to me dat i hvta consider abt our relationship as friends..hmm....i promise you..aft olevels..i will think it over very seriously...k?bcos..u knew i love weather...and it will be unfair to u if i acpt u..rite?so...well...im kinda sry but i hvta tell u..currently...i onli have weather in my heart...thks for being here wif me n thks for telling me dose words...thks..

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smile like crazy @ 8:28:00 PM

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Saturday, September 02, 2006

NOw wat??...he's confessing to me for de umpteen times aft many years agn...he's making me confused...i tot we were gd frens?.....yes...in de past..i did have feelings for him..i did....but at that time..i didn want to be involve in a relationship so i..rejected him...den slowly feelings fade and i did not have any for him anymore...BUT...i didn know he did not gv up..HOW?...i told him this wasn de time to be in a relationship..BUT he said aft O's...BUT...i know...if it had been weather who confessed to me..i might have oreadi said yes....damn..i dun wana hurt him...=(....gosh...hw am i goin to face him in future...hais.....wish me luck in overcoming de fear....=(..i still love weather more...

smile like crazy @ 9:15:00 PM

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de weather changed my heart...but im gona change it back....

OK....so i woke up ard 8.30 lidat today....n as usual....used com...n well....i overlooked the time....and so...i left home to meet wg onli at 9.58?hahas...so i rushed dere..but..on de way dere..i saw 31 went by me...n Oops..dat meant we missed de bus...so i cont'd to wok dao bus stop...den saw wg sitting dere le so i apologised for being late..well...he did not blame me=)...and as i sat down..i took out my hp and i saw "gd morning...well..i reached le...where are you?take ur time to come...dun need rush=).."..OOps...wg send me de...hahas...dots...n u noe wat?...he handed me a packet of 3 ferro roche....he said he went to buy for me while waiting..hahas...how sweet of him!n so...we waited n de bus soon came and we wenta ljs to eat...and of cos...we ate breakfast one....hahas....i couldn reali finish my last bit of hashbrown BUT he forced me to eat it...hais...den well..he was bored so he folded a straw heart n gave it to me..=)..such a sweet daddy i've got...XD...den OK...we studied chem n maths...dao 3 plus..liling came to join us...n dat was when we became tired and so..we slacked...den wg wanted to eat mac...so we left ljs..BUT..u noe wat?..i forgot to take de straw heart..i left it on de table...sry wg...sry....=(...den well...dey both ate sundae but din eat...den mummy came and so i went off wif her..den dey two went tuition..=)

well...de straw heart...certainly brought back memories for me..i think *ahem* knows and i know...BUT...dats oreadi in de past le...now i have....

WEEGEE IS DE SWEETEST DADDY I'VE GOT!
WEATHER IS DE SWEETEST GUY I'VE MET IN ALL MY LIFE!
LOUISURE GUANYI LYDIA HUISHAN IS DE SWEETEST FRENS I'VE GOT.
AND I LOVE EM MANY MANY!

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smile like crazy @ 5:48:00 PM

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Friday, September 01, 2006

de weather changed my heart...but im gona change it back...

hmms..morning woke up and well...did ABIT of work...den...ard 11.40...i left home to mit wg...well..den we went to ljs to study...hahas...did many qn of organic chem wif him and yarhs...i realised dat de book sux BCOS gt so many errors in de book lahs.den yarhs...wg was so fed up wif de book lahs..so was i..hahas..n i taught him wat are monomers and i made him admit there is a word "HYDROGENATION"..hahas..at first he insist dere isn den i showed him de word IN his BK n he finally convinced..hahas...yarhs...den we helped each oth wif qns...BUT de strange thing is he was supposed to teach me vectors..BUT in de end..i taught him..hmms...so odd..yarhs..thks for teaching me relative velocity lahs...i know abit le..hahas...yarhs...den liling came to find him cos dey gt tuition...but liling needed to go popular first so off dey went..den me n wg toktok a little before he send me off to interchange...den i took 139 and den...yarhs..wok home...den at home....lazy to study le...so i slacked!

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smile like crazy @ 6:52:00 PM

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