went for work today...super duper sian lahs...tecksheng left at 12?and xiaomei left at 5...ahh..luckily aft that, i had janet to acc me tok..so she told me abt how she met her husband..how he courted her..and how they eventually became tgt...and we were toking abt some really interesting stuffs when ah teo suddenly dropped TEN trays of hp...so we had to pick up the fones...and worst, match the imeis again..ahhh...and well...aft work, i made my way home..((: and i was thinking..."what if one day, i meet him in the train on my way back home?"...den i was thinking for the ans...and the ans is.."ahhhhh....i wont be so 'lucky' "..lol

went up to ah ma's place in the morning..then had a browse through for strybooks in the library for ard 20 mins? then left aljunied and met bestie at bugis....had laksa for lunch(: then shopped ard bugis..bought two tees again...almost bought a wallet frm the wallet shop...wok-ed frm bugis to dg...shopped boringly at dg...then..bestie had to leave to meet her fren at orchard..so i headed down to amk mac and meet syl and banana...had mac for dinner..and off we go to meeting...and whoa...SWEAT like nobody's business(: reached home at 11 plus..actualli..would have been ltr if i mrt-ed all the way..hahas..luckily i took bus wif yq, xb and syl to serangoon((:

im so tired to elaborate futhur..N-I-T-E-S..NITES!

i am SICK again....had fever today..but luckily..now it's gone because of the fact that i ate panadol((: so the stupid factory bluff all of us that we will be released at 5...then 6...then 7....finally...its 8!!-.- like its no diff??lol.....not working tml because of the fact that the factory has poor management..but...lucky me...will be gg out wif bestie((: hahas..miss her loads..
k...so im not in the mood to blog anymore...because of my nose again..ahh...

i hate my nose being blocked...=/

met up with syl queen xuebin at amk....was supposed to mit jez at yishun..but she was late..so we went off first without her...so we travelled all the way to choachukang then took LRT to petir...spent the whole aftnoon at mrs chee's hse...danial jas jiayi and shima was there oso(: watched "white chicks", then some of them started to play cards...till ard 4.30..den we left because we catchin a movie...lol....supposed to watch either protege, norbit or letter frm iwo jima..but..we ended up watching "just follow law"....a funny movie with many self-invented "short-forms" and stuffs like the 4Bs, the 5Es, the 3Cs...and like instead of LRT and MRT,its NRT??and GTA...LRA, BTA...its like LOL??hahas...so aft the movie, we went to the food court to dine...had western food...and wow..our share of food was like wow....super big lahs..but we still managed to finish the food because we were like super hungry?((: aft that, we MRT-ed to homesweethome....but i didn mrt-ed all the way down to boonkeng because i was lazy(: so i alighted at tpy and asked mummy to fetch me frm the bus stop..ha...

i hate my nose, simply because it is sensitive to everything..and now i have block nose every now and then the temperature of my surrounding changes..ahh...

band-ed today..and wth, im tanned again..ahh....so i had to put foundation on my face just now when i went for the dinner at paramount hotel...dinner was fine,actually(: am feeling rather tired, since i woke up 6.30 this morning...ive been lacking of sleep again these days..i bet my eyebags will be out soooon=/ oyarhs, gave zen his oreos and his tee-shirts...LOVESANDKISSES to him(: he's super adorable can.. will be meeting the com tml to go mrschee hse and...yepp((: watch MOVIE!!thinking about it, its been long since i watched a movie actually..say..the last movie i watched was with yuqin, bestie and linus??yep, that is, the night at the muesum..ooh i love that movie because that was how the name of dumbdumb came about for bestie(: ahh..i miss bestie loads..haven seen her since....last friday??:( back to the topic..erms..oyah..so we'll be catching a movie...like FINALLY im watching one?(: going out tml would mean im not working!!(: neeway, i think the damn factory is closed for the day..haas...and at the same time, i wont be gg to bayi's hse=wont be seeing zen=wont be getting his SAYANGS=will be missing this little boy...haas...chingay's today..but i din get to watch it:( omygosh...i dont think i can even catch the repeat on teevee, if there's one...ahh...

=X i was standing at the very spot,the spot where you always wait for me at..i was looking ard the station and i realised all the memories i could recall was all related to you..all i can think about was you..how you always wait for me..like at the station before we went to kfc to study for olevels..how you stood at the spot i was standing earlier on, waiting to give me the chemistry book..how that book eventually made us got into a quarrel..even the bus stop upstairs reminded me of you...the way you sat there, waiting for me to come..the way you asked me to take my time and need not rush..the fact that you went to buy ferro for me, knowing its my favourite..how we studied at ljs, with you teaching me chemistry and stuffs..how we did the MCQs together..how i proved to you there's the word "hydrogenation"...how you forced me to eat my last bit if hashbrown..how you shared the choco pie with me..how you folded the straw heart for me..and how i forgot to take it with me when i left the place..how we blamed each other for everything, like say, you blamed me for being small, unabling us to watch nc16 shows(haunted apartment), how you pretended to be angry because of the fact i scolded you dumb..how you always send me home in bus 31....how you......
everything of you is vividly in my mind...i really miss you loads..
how i regretted not taking the straw heart wif me...ahh.and i regretted more-not saying YES!!

btw, LOVES AND KISSES TO ZEN..happy 4th birthday!!((:

work-ed today again....well..one super big news is TIAN XIU is BACK to work!!!i miss her((: so okay..i worked with a super super super sian mood...was like almost slpin??lol...well, then because of the poor management again, there wasn any new transciever..so..at ard 6 plus..we all went out to line to help paste labels...so that ongtecksheng made me paste the bigger label because the bigger one was much pressuring since it MUST be super accurate..-.- pasted and i was super lucky to paste it right thru out..but xiaomei was alittle unlucky..she pasted one of it wrongly and we had a hard time trying to take out the label and to re-paste it..but nvm, at least we succeeded it before the leader came((: so it's such a bother to queue up infront of the machine and waiting till 2000 before we can actually punch out..but well...we've got no choice....hahas....and whats worst was that mr ngyuqin actually cut queue...ok...as he prefered..its JUMP queue..lol....so aft finally punching the dumb cards, made our way down to collect our $4 angbao..lol...4 is beta den none((: hahas..so i got home later than usual:( hahas...

okay..so i worked today with a not sleepy mood..i seemed to be in a very cheery mood today until...erms..shall tok abt it ltr...back to today...was MH tgt wif uncle seng...i like being MH because i get to move abt((: erms...so to the reason which made me pissed off...is my fckin bro...i think he's the person i HATE most in my life..because he's unreasonable, has a super bad temper, ugly, and possess all the bad qualities of a person...he sux to the utmost core..he can go and die for all he want...i think it would have been better if he didn come out from the stupid cell....one word to describe him--HORRIBLE..well..he suck!!

so i woke up at 11 plus today =X den went to bugis wif mummy(: so i bought two tops dere..actually, is just simple tee-shirts..den headed down to tpy...bought erms,TWO childish cartoon tees for myself frm hangten...lol...casual wear((: and also bought two for zen...hahas...bought my laptop bag as well..had curry and bread for dinner..=DD

im working tml...like FINALLY lahs.

so ppl..ive TWO new LOVES..ie,
wang dong cheng(jiro) and as expected, wu zun((:
both has acted in huayangshaonianshaonu..and as i remembered, jiro has acted in "erzhuojuziwen"..hahas..so, i find jiro CUTE!and, wuzun as the handsome one.
well..dont think i will forget mikehe, i wont..because i still list him right on top((: i miss watching his shows...ahh..

spent my afternoon at siyi's hse...it was super fun to just sit dere and look at zen playing..ooOH..he's super duper likeable can..and i think i adore him to bits!!loves and kisses to him((: i swear and promise i will buy more stuffs for him to eat..gees...
wont be working tml either because of the stupid management again..ahh...

LOVES AND KISSES to all..((((: maye i shud try LOVES KISSES AND HUGGIES to all...

for no reason, im on cloud nine...i should be sad for whatever reasons now..but ive thought it through..i can always find a better guy than him=D

im super lost now...super lost in a world that i am alone in...i dont like my fam at times...seriously..just a cny and damn, they two cant even take it well...and the ones suffering?oyes, is me n mummy..and the thing im not happy about is, not even mummy understands me..hello!!its cny!!who would want to go visiting ALONE? just because of that two guys, you choose not to go for visiting at their hses and you asked wheth i want to go and you could arrange it for me...like wtf..?ahh..i dont like my life...seriously...its been long since i felt warmth in this fam.i think since the day i came home, finding the luggage gone, finding him gone..oyes..thats the day...like it was how long ago?i cant remember...i dont like i dont like i dont like my life-.- i HATE cny..its not a happy one this yr thou..sometimes, i wish you weren *U*..
and for that chen guy, ahhhh..he sux too because he made me fall for him TOTALLY =X

so i spent my day at dayi's hse...with a few hours watching "hua yang shao nan shao nu" (: okay, so it's super duper nice lahs can...andandand...this show has many many many shuai-ge(s) like wuzun and many many many more...lets see..i think dere's a total of 5 or 6 handsome guys in it..heehee..

okay..so one conclusion is i dont like cny...first was no steamboat because the purpose of steamboat is for a reunion family...and i do not have one, so that meant no steamboat for me..secondly, who would finish visitings at 1 plus and come home by 2 plus??well...me...-.- its the FIRST year that i ever spend my chu yi at home sleeping..oyes..sleeping...because that is the most effective way of passing time...
okay, so went to dad's mum plc in the morning before heading for mama hse...ahh..zen wasn dere yet so i couldn gv him the hello pandas snack...oya..went to da gu's hse aft that..well..xiaogu is not in s'pore right now so yupps..din see her..and i got to know that yongyong korkor is in states right now, pursuing his studies...ahh...such a tall and goodlooking guy with such good future(: he must be a popular grab((: so didn stay long at da gu's hse....came home next...ahh..wth...
luckily tml will be gg to dayi's hse(((((:

so i had in total, 3 false alarms-.- am really disappointed now....really feel like breaking down..feel like running over to his house and knock on his door and ask him the qn...really feel like phoning his house fone...realli feel like....realli feel like seeing him...
so i was thinking..if that time i hadn been so stubborn in my stand..i may could have been happy by now..instead of msging and asking the reason to it..how i wish i can turn the time back...back to the month of september 2006..i dont mind living those few months again..i dont mind taking my olevels again since i didn do quite well this time anw...i just wan turn the time back so i could say yes to him...ahhh..wth...i should blame myself for it..-.-

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVE PPL!!

so i woke up at 11.40 today....went wif mummy to buy stuffs..came home and i slacked the whole day...(:

msged him again...he replied ONCE...but didn replied the 2nd time:( was looking at my fone for almost 30 mins....but there wasn a single tone frm my fone...den finally my msg tone was heard!!rushed for my fone and was desperate to open the msg...only to my disappointment, the msg wasn frm him...it was frm oth ppl....so i was like damn disappointed!!VERY, to be exact....so i guess the "erms.ya?" was the last msg???ahhhhhhh...i reallyreallyreally miss him =X

and now im gona save BUCKS to get myself
-t-shirts
-a jacket frm either flesh imp or 77th street
-accecories

yupps...more or less...thats enuf(:

okay, actually im lazy to blog tonight..but i shall make the effort to, for i have stm and will forget things fast=X

morning went to work till 12pm...was mh today because tecksheng,being sick, didn come for work...so well...sweated LOTSA..and the most suay thing is, alex came in to get the goods...but one good thing is, he is not as irritating as before..(: although he still asks me questions-.- hahas..but well.i was in a rather good mood today so i did answered him in a very normal tone(ie, no harsh tones and no diao-ing) haa...left work at 12....was supposed to mit gf at somerset station by 1245..but well..both of us were late and also decided to mit at shaw house because i had the intention to look for bestie...so acc bestie for her lunchbreak...den gf came along while bestie needed to get bak to work..shopped ard wif gf..yuqin came along at ard 4?so shopshopshop...bought a pair of shoes(the one i didn buy that day at fareast)...lol...gf went off at ard 5...den woked ard before heading to shaw hse to say BYE to bestie..met mummy at the indian mama stall nearby my house..went shengshiong to buy some stuffs.came home...and..slacked i think.

gf asked to be my hubby and me to be her wifey..hmm...sounds weird so i told her laopo is better for her to call me..BUT..i will still call her gf(: because im used to it..gees=DDD

love my gf to bits because she owes me TWO...one for the oth, one for today(: ahh....even if she owes me nothing.she'll still be my gf the same..(:

im so tired to blog today =X

girlfriend came to my house in the morning..purpose was to register her courses...but silly her, forgot to bring her jae pin..so she cabbed home and gave me a call and told me her pin..helped her to register then went to dg to mit her....lunched at pasta..had ham and sausage baked rice(: shopped at bugis...bought a top, a pair of shoes, 3 pairs of earrings, one bag (actually is gf buy for me as super belated bdae gift =D )...lol....then decided to go town...looked for bestie at isetan...acc her for her teabreak before heading to fareast to shop...saw a pair of shoes that was really nice..but..well, my posb card is spoilt all because of god knows mummy has done to it..hais..so didn buy that pair eventually-.- btw..i pierced the fifth ear hole today..like FINALLY lahs..so now i have 3 on my right, and 2 on my left..hahas..met up wif bestie aft her work while girlfriend went home...so we mrt-ed down to amk bcos i have meeting and she wanted to mit her mummy to buy shoes..so meifen and yanwai came along and said byes to bestie...went for meeting....aft meeting, gave bestie a call..and OMG!she had waited for her mum for more than one hour!!!!omgomg....poor her...so i acc her....den her parents and bro came along..and..so we had dinner tgt...din eat much(: den bus-ed home...and omg...bus sick!!almost vomitted...ahh...

yay!!will be miting up wif gf and mabel this friday(: loves and kisses=D

heyhey...
so updating you frm my previous post..o YES!!the greeny soft toy is frm korkor((: and this morning..he gave me a macdonald treat..hahas...
okay..so i stayed home and did my stuffs..YAY!will be meeting up wif sure tml...double YAYS!huii asked me out tml...hmms..y shud i be YAY-ing when i cant make it....ok..so, BOO!!i cant make it to mit up wif les partner..erms...
back to today..jim asked me to go work but HA!!i dont feel like it..
and please people..i got the most pathetic job in the most pathetic factory on earth with pathetic management under the most pathetic boss((:
one minute, they would ask you to work..and the next..they would ask you to stay home..ahh..wth...

hey....so yupps...worked ytd and today...but sad to say..tml and wednesday im not working..and maybe on friday, im oso nt working...lol....okay..so, i submitted my courses le...ahh...(:

when i got home, i found a greeny soft toy right infront of my room door...and if dere is such a odd thing, it may meant that it's frm korkor...and if it's frm korkor..it could be the first pressie he's gving me!!but well...who knows?it maybe not for me..he may happened to leave it dere-.- he's not back yet and i cant ask him about it!!what a bother!ahh..

and YAY!will be meeting up wif dearest girlfriend on valentine's day..
had rejected all dates to go out with my dearest sure(:
ahh..i miss bestie loads too!
LOVES and KISSES(:

heyheys..didn blog ytd bcos was too tired to do so...erms...yep..got my results already since ytd..well...im not reallyreallyreally happy about my results....im partially happy yet partially sad..how do i say?erms..okay..
my results are:
r4: 10
r5: 13

erms...to some, this may be considered a GOOD result.but.it doesn seem that good to me...because,if u look in depth...
english-three
humanites-three
emaths-two
amaths-one
c.science-one
art-three
chinese-three

-.- LOOK AT MY HUMANITIES AND EMATHS!!!!!!LOOK!!!a THREE and a TWO!wth!i expected a ONE for these two subj because they have always been my niche and i nv gave up studying them even for a moment!nearly cried....seriously..was super shock to see both subj that i had believed would have a one to have these grades....omgomgomg!..hais...
BUT.super surprisingly, my c.science..for the FIRST TIME!!got a one(: that, im proud of myself.and a another commendable result is my english..was surprised i got a THREE..like YAYS.hahas.

band-ed today((:

RESULTS ARE OUT TOMORROW!!!!

ahhhhhhhhh..how?how?how?damn it..
gd luck to all esp bestie,girlfriend,weegee and hui....(: and of course..to myself!

erms...ytd left work at 6..rushed to amk to mit the rest at mac...had meeting....came home late...slept late..resulting in dark eye rings today!!!!@.@ ahhh.....so today work and work and work....had went to line to help out....and damn i love line more den bagging!hahas....ahhh..i have no mood to blog tonight liaos...shall blog tml nite if i have the mood...

ppl..wish me luck and i will love you more(:

worked today...and i dun like today bcos of someone who spoils my day..morning was okay until she showed me the black face when i did nothing at all except to ask her not to pack the fones first becos janet has not confirmed wif me wheth it's supposed to be packed....so..i swallowed up the teeny weeny bit of anger and still treated her very nicely....but....she still showed me that darn black face..den in the aftnoon, the same thing happened..she was persistent in packing the phones..this time, i din not bother to stop her..yuling did...but she didn listen..so i told yuling not to bother abt her....i bottled up the anger and was about to explode...but i didn....den she asked about wheth there is onli one dj for that model..i said i didn noe..and she gave that sarcastic remark of "u dunoe mehs?".....wtf..at that point, i almost burst out...wanting to shout at her "wtf..what do u mean by that?did u meant that i SHOULD know how many bloody djs are there?should i know how many stupid models are there?why should i know?why cant YOU be the one who knows-it-all?since you so pro, can predict wheth must pack the fones anot, why cant you know how many djs are there?wth..ive put up wif u for the whole day and im not born to do that..i dun work for you..so dun gv me that damn attitude of urs....we are both production operators....so use that tone on me...u may be older than me...but i dun see the point of me respecting you because i dont see YOU respecting me first!!i may be the one i/c of that group,but it doesn mean i know everything;doesn mean i must do everything for u!why cant u just OPEN ur eyes and look whr to put the djs instead of asking me evrytm, expecting me to tell u every single time!!??you just spoilt my day!!ahhh...u sux!"......ahhhh...i shall disown her of her darling status....so as i was storming just now, i prefered to tap the cards myself so i turned down danish's kind offer of helping me...den so suay, that alex was there beside me, tapping his card, so he toked to me and i ignored him...den when he was like saying "oi..y u lidat de...."....i was pissed off and i gave him a very bu shuang attitude of "WAT???.................." hahas..blame on his suayness then..

woke up at 7.30 today...called mabel in case she was still asleep, and to my surprise, she was awake...so met her at downstairs her house and off we went for our excercise date....ran ard 4 rounds only because my chest pain acted up again while i was running my 3rd round...rested...did sit-ups..walked for another 2 rounds before leaving the stadium for breakfast...aft our meal, wenta popular to get my notebook...den, walked home...past moulmein...damn..i miss those days...me n mabel was toking abt it..abt how our lives were in the past...i miss the little music room at the roof although i hate the teacher teaching us music-.- i miss the hall whr we were all scared of the stone up in the corner of the hall..i miss the little canteen, tgt with the little sink which was for us to brush our teeths(((: i miss the science garden which i have always hated because of assignments..i miss the basketball court which was ltr turned into a netball court...i miss the somersault bars which we play almost everyday...i miss the bookshop and the staffroom..i miss the pond with the orange and white fishes in it..i miss the small classrooms we ever studied in..i miss the backdoor which leads to the bridge..i miss the field which i used to think it was big,but now it seemed so small to me...i even miss the "mama shop" at blk 102 and 104....-.- i miss the days((:
so i came home and did stuff...den headed for dg to mit my les partner-huishan=D again, we decided to walk frm ps to lasalle..but our plan failed because eventually, we decided that we did not know the route..so halfway thru, we hop onto bus 14....at lasalle, well, sry to say but it was a boring one..there wasn many booths ard, like say, there weren't any interior design booths,neither were there fashion design booths...lol...so aft taking the brochures..we took bus 14 to suntec...shopped....decided to go marina sq...shopped..den decided to wok to bugis....and we really walked((+ at bugis, we ate takopachi and also shopped ALITTLE at bugis village..had wanted to shop the whole of it but because it was simply tooooo crowded that we got so fed up with it and decided to leave bugis....so we went back to marina sq...bought a top at dorothy perkins...=D den yupps, had dinner at foodcourt....was sitting at the view of esplanade..and i miss him!!it's like SO NEAR YET SO FAR...and because hui wanted to look at the jackass..we decided to make a trip down to haagen daz..well....glanced at him...omg!i miss him..memories of him came back to me...wok past the shop several times before heading down to outdoor...sat by the sea and had a chat wif my partner..ard 8 plus, decided to mrt-ed down to marina bay....(: took the train dere cos hui wanted a seat..ha..so came home....

it's always nice to have heart-to-heart talks and nonsensical chats with my les partner=)
ps, not forgetting my girlfriend too...+DD

SO NEAR YET SO FAR; only huishan knows the meaning behind it:(

and i really miss the jackass lots..

met yiqian at station today...and when we just went down the escalator, he realised he forgot his notebook..so i stayed down dere and waited for him to go home to take it....so he took it and off we went...and when we were at dg, he again realised he forgot something impt...so we had to travel bak to b.k again....den this time when he returned...we decided to take train to serangoon to take bus 22 because we were late!lol..met sylvia on the bus((: so band-ed today, practiced...den yupps....had dinner wif em at amk central...had claypot rice...it was yummy though there were more meat than rice-.- oya..shopped ard amk hub just now and saw one nice top...still pondering wheth i should buy it....erms...had a mini chat wif yuling just now..hahas...tml no work thou..

tml morning will be meeting mabel for excercise date((: im getting FAT!!ahhh...i wana burn the fats away+D
aftwhich, wil be meeting my les partner=)

so now, i have got ur reply..well..it isn what i hoped or wished to hear..but..i understand ur choice because it simply is too sudden..for you..and also for me..its the first time ive ever confessed to someone...but yupps....the ans isn what i want(: it's not ur fault now that things have come this way..it's more of my fault...i shouldn have gave you up that time..i really shouldn't...knew you for 13 years...rejected you since sec one...now when finally ive come to senses..you gave me up because you think it was impossible for me to change my mind...but so unexpectedly, i told you i like you...you couldn't accept it...and you also decided to tell me its not the time to go into a r/s...esp when i may not be firm of my own feelings....i understand you...i really do...so i wouldnt blame you for its my own fault...so..let's just continue our friendship to the 14th ,15th, 16th year and counting....maybe its true when i said we were fated but not destined to be tgt(:

was supposed to go out wif my dearest girlfriend today..but last min, her mummy ask her go work so she couldn go out with me T.T hais..so tried calling ppl out...and guess who i went out with eventually??yupps!!my miss laikaryuen(: miss her loads.hahas..so we shopped the whole of bugis...and the purpose was to buy my cny clothes...but...in the very end, i didn get anything, simply because i was being too fussy abt clothes nowadays...so headed to fareast...bought the purple jacket at 77th street..like FINALLY lahs..have been wanting to get it since dec.no.november..hahas....bought a belt at fareast oso....headed down to heeren to find my les partner...hahas..will be gg out wif her most probably on sunday(: aftwhich, wenta shaw house to find bestie while karyuen headed for her band pract..fetched her frm work....wenta find sarah den go wheelock to see crumpler bags....den finally, headed home(:

what if i say i like you??
what if i meant what i said?

pls dun die of heart attack(: lol

ftoday worked with a super sian mood-.- saw that xiaoxiaozi which totally spoils my day..but the good thing is...he nv tok to me at all today(: i mean, he didn have a chance to do so bcos line ended work at 5pm while i ended at 8pm..lol....accidentally saw him looking at me while i was turning my head...damn....and oya..i got a new darling>>jessie..becos she wouldn allow me calling her auntie..hahas...so we came up with the idea of calling her darling..hahas.....then erms...just now during teabreak..me n yuling went to toilet...ending scaring ourselves-.- when we were approaching the door, there was the slamming knocks on the door....damn were we scared lahs....but we managed to pluck up the courage to open the door..hahas..den....in de toilet....we both were so scared that we would abandon each oth in the toilet..lol..and we ended up screaming like nobody's business....erms....lucky the security didn hear us thou..erms....aft work...met up wif bestie at ps and finally ate the most wonderful food on earth-ham and sausage baked rice..hahahas..(: had a long chat wif bestie and updated her on stuffs ard me..hahas