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Friday, February 29, 2008

im so drained out of my energy.

a tiring but super duper fun day(:

lunched.

then we gym-ed. hahas. for ard 1 hour(:
i hope i lost some calories(:
and well, whenever gf is ard, there's fun and laughter because she always do stupid stuffs. she even stood infront of the mirror of the gym, and sang, and danced. lols. she really made me laugh my head off today(: and photos were taken too, though not many, when we were in the gym. was far too sweaty and takglam to be taken by the camera. hahas.

then it was swimming time. wah, her pool damn cool. there was jacuzzi too(: so we were in the pool for ard 1 and half hour? lols. we forgot to bring goggles down, so i couldnt really swim because the water kept getting into my eyes. hahas. so anw, as what ive said before, i think my girlfriend is really nonsensical and crazy. fancy dancing in the pool! lols. she damn funny please. hahas.

so anw, we took quite a number of crazy photos after we got out from the pool. we look abit weird with a tshirt over our swimsuit. lols. will upload some better ones after gf send me(:

then it was another photo session at her house. hahas.

i love photo sessions with my dearest girlfriend:D

smile like crazy @ 8:14:00 PM

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Thursday, February 28, 2008

sometimes i wonder about the worst that can ever happen to me.

i wont say what were the thoughts that came to my mind because i dont want it to come true. but i think that the worst things that im afraid of, are not about myself. i think if one day, people around me, if they get into trouble or anything, im not sure what i'll do.

and sometimes, i think in a way or another, im worried for myself too. because ive simply too many aches. i often have migraine and chest pain. and i think thats enough to shorten my life span alrdy. can somebody tell me what can i do to cure my migraine, other than consuming panadols? because panadols dont seem to help at all.

oh and anw, i really want to thank some people, for their friendship and everything they've done for me (;

lets start from the beginning of my life.

thanks to all my ciyou friends for helping me to have such a wonderful childhood, regardless of whether you're from before-and-after-school-care or from younger classes. but all that's in my memory, are actually more of ciyou before-and-after-school-care. from the old ciyou centre under block 29 to the new centre at under block 75. thanks everybody. i remember i had one best friend, siya. i kind of miss her now because its been so long ever since we last contacted. we lost contact somehow after she moved house. i remember she was one year older than me and she was really a nice girl. like a big sister, she took care of me very well and i had always regarded her as one of my best friend:D sihui was her sister, and sihui was really a nice girl too. she would always tell me about derrick, blahblahblah. hahas. so cute. :D anw, there were other people like ryan, peishi, and others (sorry but i somehow forgot their names alrdy). i remember the times we had fixed schedules. lols. 3pm was teatime. 5pm was drinking water time. we had to drink 500ml each day. and well, we always compete with each other. hahas. i miss the carefree times.

there were people like carmen and pangmaye too. my ciyou-cum-moulmein friends:D i miss them too.

there was him too. thank you too.

then there were people like amanda, huiting, grace, qibin, kenny, blahblahblah who made my 1A and 2A life:D hahas.

i cant really remember who was my best friend in primary 3. but i knew i was quite on gd terms with pangmaye since then.

primary 4 was when i got to know gf and people like shiqing, lichoo, firdaus, ahmad, mabel, etc. hahas.

primary 6, i got to know chloe, elfreda, fransisca, sarah, weekeng, and many other friends from glory 2 and other classes as well. chloe and elfreda were my good friends too. they were two sweet girls who always made me smile(:

den it was secondary sch. i had close friends like guanyi and lydia:D and of course, i got to know the sweetest people like tohqiuling, rachel, chern ron, sylvia, syahir, weijian, rony, jason, jinghao, daryl, etc etc etc etc etc. hahas.

1 year of polylife have passed. thanks to clique who made my life brighter. thanks to zilra for being my 1st friend. thanks to venos who is going to bring me more friends. thanks to 1h05 for the past 1 year.

thanks to all:D

of course, there are huishan, mimi, and hamham.:D

thanks everybody who was , who is , who will be a friend of mine:D

of course, there are some super big thank-yous that i would like to highlight to:

-girlfriend

-bestie
-lydia
-huishan
-mimi
-hamham
-kianchen, luyi, junhui, sylvia, meifen, yanwai
-apple, rayna, janice, fion
-serene
-valarie
-janice
-keong
-lynn
-vera
-siya
-danial
-syahir
-qiuling
-duncan (mr hiew)
-changyong
-wenghao
-w.g

okays, enough of my rattling. shall rest my laptop for awhile:D

smile like crazy @ 4:47:00 PM

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Wednesday, February 27, 2008

exams are finally over:D like YAYS.

went out with clique after exams. they are my lovables, lovables, and still my LOVABLES :D
we went seoul garden. hahas. clique are all nice people, they always remembers that i have limited stuffs to eat. so they were like rather concerned whether i have stuffs to eat. val and janice were super lovely, one giving me hotdogs, d oth giving me fishballs. LOLS:D okays, so we had a rather nice time at seoul. photos photos and more photos were taken:D but, we were all quite cui after seoul. so we walked ard fareast almost aimlessly. and well, guess what? OH YES. i saw my nonsensical, lovable, cute, crazy, pretty GIRLFRIEND :D:D like HAHAHAS. i miss her damn much pls. LOVEEEEEEEE and misses. so it was like, after i saw her, i was quite hyper. although the hyperness only lasted ard 30mins before i was cui again. -.- Lols. was seriously tired. then keong headed home. janice suggested gg marina to slack. and well, we really ended up at marina, SLACKING. with nth to do, no mood to walk. so we somehow walked ard, sat at secret recipe, and then decided to come home because we totally had no energy to walk alrdy.

im just so super duper happy to be home.
and im so in love with the hongkong show, " jiu dian feng yun". im so going to watch the vcd soon, and at the same time, catch it on tv (: woots.

oh anyway, congrats to IMP in successfully getting an attachment (:

oh anyway, about the dream i had last last night. i dreamt of cy and some others graduating and cy was crying. oops, sry cy:D hahahas.

ah, i dont want a change of class.
i dont want a change of semester because i wont be seeing many many people next semester in sch like my cds friends from LRM, some upcoming year 3s, some graduating year 3s. and whats worst, clique in different classes.

i cant imagine seeing vera or janice or val or lynn or yongkeong, sticking ard with other people during lunch breaks. ah, i think im alil too dependent on them. my sch life, my project grps, my lunchbreaks, have always been with them. im going to miss them TTTTHHHHHHHHHIIIIIISSSSS much.

i cant bear to.

smile like crazy @ 9:33:00 PM

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Tuesday, February 26, 2008

tml's LAST DAY of exams(: yays.

oh anw, didnt study out in the end on sunday. why? ask weng. lols.

oh i hate marketing.
marketing is my sleeping pill.
ahh.

shall blog lots tml night:D or maybe on thursday. COULD be tonning out tml night. :D

and i dreamt last night.
of some of the year 3s graduating.

T.T

smile like crazy @ 6:33:00 PM

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Sunday, February 24, 2008

im so freaking tired. and i have totally no mood to study at all.
i tot i will be able to chiong OB after b today. but, dinner-ed and walked ard amk till 10 plus-.- and by the time i reached home, it was 11 plus alrdy. as a result, i have totally no mood to study. only have the mood to slp(:

nvm, i still have the whole of tml to chiong. provided i dont slack.
'll be studying with weng and kai tml at tamp.
eeee. could have studied at bk mac initially T.T hahas. nvm. tamp is not too far anw:D

im gg to be so damn packed during the hols. T.T should i work? im not sure wheth i have the time.

march 4: venos chalet
march 5: venos chalet
march 6: b
march 7: ?
2nd week of march: camp
march 31-april 2: SL camp
april 7-april 12: FOW/FOC
april 12: SYF

above mentioned are the rough dates only, there are other days that are occupied alrdy, but i cant rem the dates-.-

and plus, ive to go out with so many people, to so many places, to do so many things.

should i work? erms.

smile like crazy @ 12:04:00 AM

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Thursday, February 21, 2008

i stone-d at home today. all simply because weng had diahoerra, and couldnt study out with me -.-
take care anw.

oh anw, i seriously hate marketing. studying it is such a chore.
hais.
anw, studied in sch ytd with weng. its gd to study at mensa rather than the library, simply because the library was filled with noisy people, even had people CHANTING some script or book. it was like bees buzzing, rather irritating.

mensa was much more better, and a more conducive environment for me to face my marketing book. lols! but the setback was, the wind was too strong, and it blew my fringe all over my face. and it was rather irritating too. i guess im being a lil too fussy. hahas.

i think i thinked too much. she probably didnt mean it that way, or did she? i dont know, but it seems it always turned out this way since 1 year ago. hot and cold, cold and hot. i dont really know what she really wants. updates or no updates? im not even sure whether she's interested to know, or she's just putting up a facade; pretending to be interested to know. can someone ask her and then tell me whats on in her mind? i think i cant interpret whats gg on in her mind alrdy. i dont even know whats happening ard her. i think im more a stranger to her. yes, i may not see her often. but, not seeing each other often doesnt give us a reason to drift apart because bestest friends dont drift apart, do they? no, they dont. look at gf and me. i see her less than i see you pls.

okay, nvm. im crapping. exam stress.

cannot be compared.

smile like crazy @ 11:11:00 PM

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i miss my nonsensical and crazy girlfriend.

and i swear im gg to finish up her super duper belated birthday present after my mkg paper-.-

girlfriend, lets like, meet up real soon, okays?

smile like crazy @ 3:05:00 PM

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a few more photos that i edited today. hahas. there's more to come, maybe after my exams:D

smile like crazy @ 1:06:00 AM

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Wednesday, February 20, 2008

it just seem as different as ever.

you're always so apart from me.
i dont know why.

smile like crazy @ 9:19:00 PM

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Tuesday, February 19, 2008

girlfriend louisure tan ler teng, you know how much i miss you.
please let our exams be over SOON.
i so wanna go out with you :(
i have so much to tell you.

please let the exams be over soooooooon.
after exams, i'll want :
-to watch death note-change the world (probably watching with sisters or mayb other people?)
-to watch the leap years (WHO IS KIND ENOUGH TO GO WATCH IT WITH ME?)
-to go blood donating (gg with weng)
-go out with gf (its like the MOST IMPORTANT THING I SO WANNA DO)
-meet up with bestie
-meet up with huishan (its a must a meet up with her)
-go out with my lovable sisters
-etc etc etc.

T.T

i hate my killer subject THHHHHHHHHHHHHIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSS much. grr

and oops. heading for some entertainment ltr with sylvia. hahahas. what a sin to commit during study week.

studying tml in sch(: chiong-ness tml:D:D

smile like crazy @ 1:31:00 PM

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oh anw, i spent my valentines d oth day with these Lovable people:D:D

they spell LOVE:D

smile like crazy @ 1:10:00 PM

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Monday, February 18, 2008

photos(:

i realised we took almost more than 150 photos to 200 photos the whole night. but well, i chose some of the nicer ones to be posted here(; hahas. the others weren't so nice.

FIRSTLY, yes, the ulitmate VENOS family:D

this was what happened when we asked john to help us take photos-.-

And because he so wanted to be part of the photo, we let him join us:D

and lastly, i shall end it off with VENOS FAMILY POTRAIT(:

smile like crazy @ 3:35:00 PM

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Saturday, February 16, 2008

woots(:

OTC refresh was super duper uber FUN please.
we were splitted into another totally different group among the whole big OTC family.
nic jolene fion jan farid and caleb was in the same grp as me(;
SQUASH. was our grp name.
the kang the kang the kang must SQUASH(:
hahas. games like unentangling ourselves, making the star shapes, forming lines in accordance with course names and birthdates was NICEE(:
got to know many other new peeps too(: huat ah.

aft OTC refresh, we went to CPF buliding(:
ljs takeaways for dinner. yays.
aft that, was PHOTO SESSION.
we spent almost 2 hours or so taking endless shots of photos.
taking photos with almost everyone we saw. lols. so damn fun.
and we bought a belated bday cake for fongyung. hahas(: so sweet, venos. yays.
photos photos, and MORE photos taken(: hahas.

and now, im home instead of gg TM to watch movie.
aint i a good girl today, mummy?:D

hahas. (:

smile like crazy @ 10:36:00 PM

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Friday, February 15, 2008

so it was valentine's day a few hours ago? lols
(:
happy valentines day ppl:D:D

vday was sweet. other than commskills roleplay. haha. cui alrdy.
french roleplay was better than expected(: woots.

and well. after french, me n liting took some photos becos today is our last lesson tgt. i wont be seeing her next yr becos diff timetable-.- eeee. liting is like the best french partner(: hahas. :D

vday meet-up with random ppl was nice:D
movie was nice(:

hahas. WENG. i wont laugh at you de. i TRIED MY BEST not to laugh okays?
well, it dont look bad or sth lahs, its just that, im more used to ur curly, messy hair. hahas.

okays. photos soon(: hahas.

smile like crazy @ 12:51:00 AM

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Thursday, February 14, 2008

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY:D

I LOVEE.

girlfriend. 9 years and counting
guanyi. 5 years and counting
lydia. 5 years and counting
huishan. 4 years and counting
hamham
mimi
janice
valarie
lynn
vera
keong
zilra-ians
venosians

EVERYBODY, i lovee you today(:

c'mon ppl. spread the love:D

smile like crazy @ 12:51:00 AM

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Wednesday, February 13, 2008

mask-making is almost 90% done. woots. at long last, after much chionging((: hahas

left some glittering here and there to do((: woots ah!!

anw, gotten back econs and bcs coursework alrdy. except for bcs's test.-.-

econs cw: A

BCS excel test: A

BCS excel project: A

Dreamweaver project: C B+

lols. our dreamweaver marks was initially a CEEEE. like wth! we dont think we deserved a C! whatsmore, st.keong was slping that day during presentation, so NOT FAIR. so, we decided to show him our project one more time, and we showed him EVERYTHING. and i mean, EVERYTHING. and yays. he realised we should get a b+. so yays. up 3 grades! WOOHOO!!!!!

yays o yays:D:D

commskills- CUI already. hvn even settled roleplay's stuffs. T.T

random movie and dinner on thursday: 8 ppl alrdy(:

smile like crazy @ 3:09:00 AM

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Monday, February 11, 2008

give me a chance to forget you
you said u want to be free
but you hold on to me
how can
how can
how can i let you go

when you cry and look at me
telling me you want to be free
how can i ever let
let myself let you go
say you love me

i wish you were never here
i wish you never existed
because if you didnt
i would never have to live in misery

thinking of it
maybe i rather you are here
you gave me memories
memories i cannot find elsewhere
you gave me love
love i cannot find elsewhere

give me a chance to forget you
you said u want to be free
but you hold on to me
how can
how can
how can i let you go

smile like crazy @ 8:43:00 PM

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Sunday, February 10, 2008

went cai's house ytd(;

woots.
damn fun please.

pizza was nice.
THE IMPOSSIBLE QUIZ with sylvia was nice.
learning mahjong was also super duper uber nice(:
whipped potato for dinner was nice.

EVERYTHING was nice ytd(: woots.

ah-long pte ltd is super funny:D

my cousins jio me to go watch movie today, but well, didn feel like watching the movie for a second time.(: haas.
yays. meeting kc they all ltr:D woots.

omg, sch's starting tml. T.T
and my mask is not even 20% done. like SHIAT. i gota go buy spray paint alrdy! :D

woots ah woots.
huat ah huat.

:D

smile like crazy @ 1:21:00 PM

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Saturday, February 09, 2008

oyah. this new year is my angel's year.

yes. mickey MOUSE year(: woots ah.

i love mickey still. because.
mickey is my angel, and he speaks for me:D:D

smile like crazy @ 1:00:00 AM

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Friday, February 08, 2008

i wiped my tears for you.
a piece of tissue, never enough.
i controlled my emotions of you
i can never have enough.
i wrote everything of you.
on the biggest paper i can find.
and i still think that the words i have to describe you.
make the biggest paper the smallest one.

i threw away the tissue that wiped off my tears for you,
threw away the note i have written about you.
all into that big empty bin of mine.

smile like crazy @ 11:50:00 PM

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Thursday, February 07, 2008

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY CNY, peeps:D:D

woots. (:

today was OKAYS. just that, travelling ard was tiring. from home to kallang to aljunied to yishun and then back to aljunied. and now, im home(:

woots ah! yong2 kor is back:D walao. damn freaking shuai please(:
kor and yong2 kor cannot be compared. LOLS.
he is super duper uber WOOTS lahs(:
and too bad, he is 23 alrdy.

lols. okays. enough about him, if not, CY will say i drool. LOLS.

CY says he's handsome. lols. but aft that, he changed his statement cos he scared i'll puke. hahahas.
luckily cy acc me to msg while i was on my way from aljunied to yishun. otherwise, i think i'll be super sian on the travel. hahas(:

and and once again, HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE.

huat ah! (:

smile like crazy @ 7:31:00 PM

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Wednesday, February 06, 2008

one word to describe ytd's BCS paper : ~~CUI~~

one word to describe ytd's steamboat: SHIOK

:D

steamboat-ed at bugis last night with some random venos people:
zhaopei, kok, raazmy, tracy, apple, rayna, yuanlong, dexter, yeeping, jayloyld, fangyung and maybelle.

And ckm and Jolene came to join us too. Hmms, to show face only. But at least, they came((: yays.

Yummy steamboat took away my last 22 bucks that I have-.- boohoo. Im seriously broke.

But still, worth it(:

Today shopped at bugis and town with Sylvia. Woots. I bought a top and 3 bangles. Like SHIT. I already no money, and yet, im still spending. Grrrr.

Anw, headed down to NAC to collect my pay. Like f, the ~~riduan~~ was there. He diao-ed me lahs, so I diao-ed him back. Like wth please. I seriously cant stand him, even a second. Even romano can tell that I don’t like riduan and riduan don’t like me. We are each other’s thorn in the flesh lahs. Thank god im not working there anymore. I think I will puke if I see him for an extra second please. YUCKY YUCK. Grrr, he spoilt my day. He made my migraine come back. Like wtf.

Okays, enough about that stupid guy. Blogging about him pollutes this space. Grr.

Anw, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVE people:D:D

Woots. New year goodies. Woots:D:D

smile like crazy @ 5:19:00 PM

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Monday, February 04, 2008

Boring.
BCS is boring.
super boring.

some things, i cannot help but can only keep to myself.
simply because, i dont know how to express it out.

it seems that he dont exist anymore, i think.

smile like crazy @ 10:56:00 PM

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