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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

i feel so insecured
it seemed like a wrong choice.
or was it okay?
i dont know how should this continue
all that i know,
is that im tired.
im tired of practically everything.
things that were supposed to go left, they always goes right.
things that were supposed to be right, they always goes wrong.
oh what should i do?

i jolly well know the reason for gg online.
its not to stare into the blank white space on the screen of my laptop.
but i cant do anything else, except just to stare like forever.
SIGH.
i know things can never be the same anymore.

im tired.
TO EVERYTHING.
everything around me.

can i ever get myself out of this vexing world?
i think i need to rest. more.

smile like crazy @ 11:55:00 PM

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again, photos are not in order.
though i tried my best and i put in effort to separate the photos in accordance to day one two and three of the SL camp(:
and yes, as mentioned, this pictorial post is of SL camp. like FINALLY(:

DAY ONE.

yes, my lovely porus people(:

DAY TWO.

DAY THREEE.

i love business school. because it simply rocks the most among all the other schools(:

but still, TP is ONE BIG FAMILYYY:D

and i think this is porus nicest photo(:

smile like crazy @ 10:52:00 PM

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hello people.
okay, im just back from school. and im damn tired from SSM.

oh from what happened ytd(:
aft sch and all, met up with the rest of venos at mushroom and we headed to the chalet tgt(:
BBQ and all.
Photos and all.
wonderful time(:
i love venos people like OMG de lah.
everything was great yesterday. can we have more of these gatherings?:D
because turnout rate was pretty good, i would say(:

but still, sorry scand jan. i was alil irritated ytd about the delay and all, and im sorry i left with zhenlin without you. hopefully you wont be angry(: sorry(:

and yes, i reached home like 11 plus last night. packed my stupid stuffs for SSM. and i slept like 12 plus 1 i think.
SSM today was tiring lah.
we had to carry plates, and i swear my pinkie finger nearly broke.
omg.
den it was wine opening.
wine pouring.
serving gear.
touring around TCA.

its like omg lah. we werent supposed to do serving gear and touring i think, because the previous days' classes didnt do those. we ended our wine opening like ard 11 plus lah. den went for a short break. and we did wine pouring for more than an hour please. like omg de waste time. den we all thought we can go home aft that. BUT HELL NO, we did serving gear and all.
omg.
tedious.
im tired.
maybe plus the lack of sleep.
im just plain tired.
maybe will do some picture blogging ltr, at night(:
just let me rest first(: hahas.

smile like crazy @ 5:01:00 PM

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Monday, April 28, 2008

first official day of sch.
i thought it went pretty well(:
though dressing formal wear for BUSe causes morning monday blues-.-
but it isnt a hassle as it is for SSM. so maybe, thats something to be happy about.
i think i like my tutor mr revi nair(: and miss peggy:D
they're both damn nice people. mr nair is damn funny(:
TTO lect was boring though. it seems like a repetition subject of IHT. maybe its just the second lect. maybe next week will be better? well, hopefully(:

after sch and all, was supposed to come home.
but i somehow was tempted to go say hello to my beloved venos people, so i bid val gdbye.
and yes, i went there, said HELLO, and i was reluctant to leave. like SUPER reluctant.
i so want to go with them to the chalet, so i gave zhenlin a call. and omg, he's alr at home. so ahh, i thought siann. lidat i no need go alr. but after that, mel said she'll be taking the same bus as me. so YES, i was DAMMMN HAPPY i swear.
and okay, we slacked ard at the mushroom till ard 7? omg, we were supposed to leave by 6.20-.- so anw, yes, we arrived at the chalet at 8 plus. yada yada for awhile. and me and mel had to leave. caroli and co. followed us too. and yes, RAAZ is damn fortunate pls. he has a car though he dont have a driving license yet-.- and so dumbo was the chauffeur. hahas! no lah, he was our driver, the lovely and dumbest one(: he drove us to the interchange, and den mel and me cabbed home. simply because mel had to rush home for her project. and thanks mel, for the ride(: anw, it was really nice to talk with you about art stuffs and all. hahas.
you made me miss my art days soo much. (: lasalle and all. hahs.

anw, ytd was my dearest lydia's mummy's bday. so HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LYD'S MUM(:
im so sorry i misremembered 29 for 27. only realised that its supposed to be on 27, like maybe half an hour ago? lols.
and yes lydiatanminghui, YOU KNOW I MISS YOU TERRIBLY.
i cant wait for you Alevels to be over. i want to meet up with you badly. please dont make 31st dec/30dec the only day i can meet u. (like how it did last year-.- ). I MISS YOU GIRL.

oh i miss girlfriend too. words just cant describe how much i miss you.

i read rayna post(: OH I LOVE RAYNA TOO(:

oh, i cant describe how much i lovee venos(: i love them all to the max cannnnn.
venos GLs:
you people rock my TPlife.
thanks for everything.
thanks for sharing honeywater ard duing camps. thanks for the massage some of us got by stepping foots.
thanks for really, everything(:

venofreshies. (FOW/FOC):
oh people, you guys rock my venoslife even more. without you all, its so meaningless.
thanks for all the happiness you guys have brought to us so far. best spirited award, overall 2nd for both fow/foc. the sentosa trip, the venos dinners. oh thanks for the nv ending laughter and sharing scandalous issues gg ard the whole of venos. thanks to alllll freshies, yes, you. hahas.

i would say xiaobai is the closest freshie to me. prolly because he's part of porus too. lols. but one bad thing about xiaobai, he loves to bully me lah. like ahhT.T

cheston is the one i liked to bully in FOW.
and omg, he found out he's older than me. and now, he kps calling me junior. -.- omy. i hate cheston.

sophia and some other htm freshie. i'll render help if you need some for your projects and all next time(: i'll be willing to give advice too(:

yada yada yada.

and yes, i do miss HB people many many many(: although i see some of you now and then, but i still miss you all.

apple, SIP at sentosa seems to be so busy for you. nevertheless, i wont forget you, and i will plan next week's outing so that you can make it(: and i miss you darling(:

rayna, sentosa tooT.T harder to meet you tooo. omg.

janice, oh my scand. how's your toe? and anw, i miss talking to you scand. ive got so much to tell you too(: see ya soooon.

jolene, TAKGLAM. i dont know why, but i always miss you leh! (: honoured? lols. yes yes, i can see you TOMORROW. YAYYY. love takglam to the max.

fion. aiai(: im just so glad i have you by my side whenever i needed you. i know i can trust you with my little secrets and all.ahas. thanks for allowing me to confide in you whenever i have problems or troubles(: i love you LOVEE. (:

cheong. CKM. my fellow boonkenger. i know im soo lucky that i have you staying at boonkeng too. thanks for sending me home everytime after venos outing. thankssss(: and im glad i can talk to you too. i can trust you with my secrets tooooo:D and, thanks for acc me to the docs d oth day. i doubt i can find another boonkenger, who is asssssss NICEEE as you(: I LOVEE JINGWEN TOOOOO(:

dex. mr TALL. till now, i still dont understand why some people are soooo blissed. they get to be TALL. ahh. ok, nvm. anw, i cant wait to see you botak.(: like YAYYY.

long. EYECANDY(: oh yuanlong, i is eyecandy you de lor(: PLEASE BELIEVE MEEEEE:D hahas. omg, i cant believe im ec-ing somebody who looks like a drug addict. but well, he's a CUTEEE drug addict with many many many baby fats on his cheeks(: *pinches long's cheek*. AWW, so cute my ec. HAHHAHHS.

cy. long time no talk. catch up sooon.

FY. FEIYONGGG. i want the lego keychainnnnn. HAHAAS(: whr's our hargao and all? omg, u owe us those(: and yes, from zilra to venos. you still is FEIYONG to me. yi li qiu(: LOVEEEE FYYYYYY:D:D:D

caleb-.- himbo. omg. u mia like dammmn long pls. hahas. mia somemore, and i'll kick your ass!

I MISS THESE PEOPLE like THHHHIIISSSS much(:

YAYY. i get to see druggey tml(: i miss her i swear.(;

smile like crazy @ 11:13:00 PM

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Sunday, April 27, 2008

ZOO-ed today with christina, sylvia, kianchen, yanwai, xuebin, meifen and yiqian(:

total madness:D:D
we saw a hell lot of animals, tgt with animal shows and feeding times.
im just gg to blog briefly until i get all the photos(:

we somehow COMMUNICATED with one of the monkey species (i forgot the name), by using WOOwooWOO. and yes, we can communicate very well with them(;

yada yada yada. the animals and stuff. all the phototaking craze(:

and yes, i guess its damn obvious that. I CANT WAIT TO TALK ABOUT MY FAVOURITE POLARBEARS:D:D:D
omg. i swear i can go crazy over them.
i can go crazy over inuka.
ive been in love with polarbears since afew years back? (:
its like they are terribly loved(: though they bite, but omg, i think they're damn cute.
inuka is maybe 10times bigger than me. but hell, he's same age as me. and he's born on 26dec1990:D just 5 days older than me. lols. i took thousands of photos of inuka and sheba(ok, maybe not a thousand. too exagerrating). lols, but i did took videos of them, during their slacking time and their feeding time. i know im crazy. but im crazily in love with polarbears.
seeing polarbears inuka and sheba, somehow drove away my thoughts and ya. they managed to drive off my thoughts. at least, they did managed to keep me happy completely for ard 2 to 3 hours(: totalllll madness with them. i'll just hope inuka can go vegetarian one day, so that i can easily go into his cosy place and take a close up picture with him. HAHAHA. i know im dreaming. but i just hope that day will come(;

anw, yes, polarbear drives very well(:

and all the other animals were interesting too. photos and all will be up and edited after yiqian, meifen and yanwai sends them to me(:
but still, the other animals werent as interesting as polars(:

oh but a plus point to the elephant show perhaps(: it was pretty nice(:

yiqian nearly lost his bike key. so should i say he lost it, and then found it back, owing to a stranger who happens to pass by his bike, saw the key stuck on the bike, decides to take it out and report it to the loss and found dpt. hahaas. he's damn lucky please(:

tml's class starts at NINEam. oh what a bother. formal biz wear on monday mornings make me predict that i'll have monday blues often. ohh my god. what a hassle. ssm is worst enough. hopefully biz etti would be a thousand times better(:
im sorry venos that i cant make it to the chalet tml. 'll be gg for bbq on tuesday though(; love you people like HELL.

and. i forgot to blog it ytd. ytd was the band appreciation day, done so by the teachers, as a celebration for the band for winning top gold. i was halfway drooling while looking at the rest eat their food,simply because i couldnt even have a bite of those delicious foodT.T but on a lighter note, afew of the bandmembers put up a skit. and i swear they're damnnn cute and lovable. vids will be up soooon. hopefully, sooon. (: hahas. i think i love the bandmembers(; flashback of photos and syfvid was shown. it really touched my heart. i think im damn emotional. looking at those photos, i just cant help but think back to all the memories in 2004, 2006 and even 2008. i think all these memories will stay with me forever. and because of this love for the band, i cant help but tell myself that i need to stay on for 2010. just till 2010. (: no matter how hard its gg to be like, no matter how hard its gg to cope between studies and all, no matter what others say about me wasting my time and all, i dont care(: i think its not the time to leave the band. i just cant do it.
and ytd was the official day where cai and junhui stepped down. oh im gg to miss them two like hell.

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

polarbear drives.

smile like crazy @ 10:34:00 PM

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Saturday, April 26, 2008

omg. druggey, i hope you're feeling alright.
i know its miserable and i know the feeling you're having now.
i know its not easy to get over him, but girl, u have to try(:
and i know its hard to not think about him.
i know its hard not to be sad over him.
but girl, try to think it as a way that its gd for you both.
maybe you two are better off as friends than being a couple.
drug, you know im here for you.
i'll always be willing to listen to your troubles, so yep, dont keep it to urself yeah?
you still have the 5 of us.
you still have your other friends.
you still have me.
you know i love you girl(:
im just a phone call away(:
oh i LOVEEEE druggey(:

anw, i think i did the most courageous thing today.
and somehow, i dont feel regretful about it.
and im not really really really affected by it either.
hahas.
thanks to both druggey jan and scand jan for comforting me and all(: im REALLY OKAY:D

we're still goodfriends:D dinners and all. MEET UP SOOOON:D dont worry, i'll still continue to nudge you online as and when i feel like it.

ZOOOO TOMORROW.
polarbears will be able to drive all emo-ness away:D:D im sooo looking forward to seeing inuka the polarbear :D:D

smile like crazy @ 9:38:00 PM

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Friday, April 25, 2008

seen a doc this afternoon.
doctor mr jiten sen said that i have throat infection.
and he forbades me to eat spicy and fried stuff.
and he forbades cold drinks too.
he said porridge would be my best friend for these few days.
oh what a bother.
it cost me like 35bucks to get 3 different types of medicine.
what a waste of money.
and because i had to heed the doctor's advice and to my own throat condition, i knew i had to have porridge for lunch. so cheong and me went ard boonkeng market to source for my porridge.
and omg, not even a stall in sight. all the porridge stalls were closed already. ogod. what a day.
so i decided to go to TP to have my porridge(:

anw, THANKS CHEONG. for accompanying me to the docs. for accompanying me to the market.
for helping me to look for porridge. i swear he was looking harder than me for the porridge. hahas. THANKS SO MUCH CHEONG(((:

deyi-ed after sch.
was so sad i couldnt eat the buffetT.T
and hell was i starving. like OMG.
my stomach kept growling like ahhhhhh.
and i had to starve till i reached home. and for the very few times, i ate my dinner before i bathed(: hahas . that shows how hungry i was(:

what a bore. im gg to have porridge for my next few meals until my throats gets better.

smile like crazy @ 11:12:00 PM

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venos dinner last night
purpose was to celebrate tracy's birthday(:
hmm, yes, we dined at s11 while the BSC people helped her to celebrate first.
den we met up with them opp CPF building.
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TRACY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU(:

and then the birthday girl decided to go ard feeding people cake. and yes, she wanted to fed me with cake too.
and so she fed me with cake with the knife that is used for cutting up the cake.
and brandon pushed her hand=X
and the whole knife poke my throat.
and yes, it bled alil.
pain.
tears and all cos it was super pain.
couldnt even drink water cos it really hurts.
but it was better aft that. at least, i can drink water.
thanks for all the concern people(: esp kahyuen, cheong, brandon,janice, fy, rayna, apple(:

its like my HB people are really nice.
they all wanted to acc me to the docs today.
cheong's forcing me to go see the doctor later, but im seeing how first. kind of reluctant to see the doctor because ive always been prejudiced towards doctors.-.-
and anw, ytd HB people were having a mass conver for awhile. and u know what?
they said they should ALL acc me to the docs-.- LOLS.
i think my HB people are damn cute please. damn caring also.

oh i love them like HEEELLLLLLL(:

oh yes, its them:D
not in pic: yuanlong, cy, JOLENE.

anw brandon, ITS OKAY. no need to feel bad(: you've been apologizing since last night. lols. its REALLY OKAY. dont need to apologize liao(:

smile like crazy @ 10:35:00 AM

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photos of SYF day is up:D
again, photos are not in order.

sectional cheers:D

moment of glory(:
im super proud of them.
they made me think that all my efforts hasnt gone to a waste.

BEST DM OF 2008(:

ONG GONG DAI&xiuzhen

CRAZY JUNIOR(:

XEN.

RYAN.

XIAO DE&DA DE. clarinet:D:D

junhui jez xiuzhen sylvia

JUNHUI. thanks for everything you've taught or gave guidance to(:

its like i'll miss your stupid acts and stunts lah(:

i'll miss your breakfast too.

CAI xiuzhen sylvia

HELLO CAI ascendant(:

2004. 2008. 2006.

LUYI:D:D:D

CHRISTINA. from clarinetists till now(:

SYLVIA:D

meifen xiuzhen sylvia

LOOK AT THE WARNING SIGN PLEASE.

thank you for giving me this moment.

its the best in my life so far.

just pure happiness that goes beyond words.

meifen and xiuzhen(:

sylvia(:

farhanah(:

bamboo.

helper(:

minqiiiiii:D i miss you girl.

laywoon:D

yanwai:D

jas:D

i like the instrument(:

kechik:D

lunch with PIZZZZZZZZZA.

JUNHUI:D

suhaimi(:

queena(:

LIE LOW. DANGER.

christina(:

jez.

the two musketeers:D

ending off with the two nicest pic:

you must be thinking, SIAO. this is such a plain pic. how can it be the NICEST pic? -.-

but well, it is, to me.

i mean. its the place i yearn to be at the most.

it brings back all the wonderful memories i have in the band.

its the place i love the most.

its the place that i hate to leave.

and yes, this IS the nicest pic(:

and this, is my fellow alumni people:D

we've gone through the different stages of planning tgt.

and yes, ive learnt many new stuffs as a journey of an exmember. thanks for everything, esp weiming(:

you're the one who holds up the committee.

oh i swear im gg to miss you THHHHIIIISSS much.

and not forgetting junhui(: i'll miss you THHHHHIIIIISSSSS much too:D

i bet everyone in this committee is equally happy as me, that we've come so far tgt as a team. and yes, we achieved what we wanted.

all i have to say is THANKS.

hahas.

smile like crazy @ 9:56:00 AM

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Thursday, April 24, 2008

left to post:
-syf
-sl camp
-week0
-venos dinners
-sentosa
-fha

smile like crazy @ 4:33:00 PM

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okay. another pictorial post.
yes, zilra chalet.
these are only those from my cam. though posted are not all that ive got.
im still waiting for people to send me their part of photos(:

they're the reason why i went for chalet(:
and they're the very first friends ive got ever since i went into TP.
they were the ones that made my TP life as a freshie a happy one.
they were the ones that motivated me to be a GL in this FO.
they were the ones whom i loved dearly(:

happy birthday zilra.
together with some donuts as gifts to the year threes.
and a cake for them as well(:

THE GRADS(:

laikah and me:D

BIG HANDS POTATO KAI(:

ANTHONY(:

zilra, and then now venos(:

zilra, and then now venos:D

KIMMMMM:D

LIYI(: st-georges rocks:D

JIEMEI BEN(:

sylvia, edric, xiuzhen

EDRIC.
he's the FIRST GL that actually bonded with me, chernron and sylvia.
he's the GL that sticked with us throughout the whole FOW.
he's the GL that claims that we three were his favourite freshie.
he's the GL that helped us got to know other GLs.
he's the GL that didnt let us know other freshies because we were always with him. LOLS. JOKING(:

SERENE.
she's my darling in zilra(:
she's my gd friend.
though we havent been catching up since long, i know you're still my gdfriend; a friend whom i can turn to when i need a listening ear, right?:D and im glad you're my FA in porus. its just so wonderful again to be able to be in your group.
maybe we shall catch up again once our busy schedules are done.
(:
anw, thanks for everything, from zilra to porus.
you know i love you, my friend(:

sunny(: ITS A SUNNY YELLOW BANANA DAY(: DO THE YANABANA banana wave.

TEEEEJAYYYY:D

CK.
i didnt even know you were from zilra until you told me.
anw, its really gd to know you.(:
zilra to porus. YAY:D
zilra rocks.
porus rocks too:D

sylvia, dumbo, xiuzhen.
where's CHERNRON???

DUMBO.
he's one dumb guy. that explains why me chernron and sylvia always calls him dumbo.
and yes, dumbo always gets irritated whenever we call him dumbo.
he'd give that face and say, EH, i not dumb okay?
hahahas. but, look at his face, dont you think he look dumb and cute? LOLS.
dumbo, we're all going to miss you, now that you've grad alr. do miss us okay?:D

sharp(: you're one cool girl:D

same, from zilra to venos. you're one damn funny guy(:

kaiwei(:

SCAND. from zilra to venos.
though ive only got to know you better in venos, thanks for everything.
im glad i have you in venos,
im thankful for whatever you've done for me.
im thankful that i have you to relate to whenever i have troubles/i am emo-ing.
thanks for comforting me at times and giving me advices.
thanks for always being there for me.
you know i love you scand:D

CIYOU FRIEND, GRACE(:

ive known you since ard 3 years old.

that makes it ard 14 years?:D

well, of course,we cant really remember what happened when we were 3 years old. but. i can remember all the times we spent in primary school. since 1A to 5E(: woots. so much memories:D den i remembered i was so surprised to see you during FOW d oth time. how time flies(: hahhaas.

VERA. you know i love you and the rest. 6 of us, i hope we can meet up now and then.

serena:D

kuku WENGGGG.
its such a surprise that now i can talk to you SO MUCHHHH, when i dont even recall seeing you in FO last year. oops! anw, its nice knowing you. and thanks for lending a ear to me whenever i need someone to talk to. and of course, lending me a ear to hear me rattle on complaints and stuffs(: anw, its not good to be emo. So try not to emo, okay?:D I’ll provide a listening ear to you if you need one too(: GOODLUCK for your SIP. Meet up for dinner soon(: lastly, I ROCK, you pebble.

okay, ending off with the nicest picture:D

I LOVE ZILRA(:
like loads and loads and loads.

smile like crazy @ 1:28:00 PM

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photos for rayna's house stayover(:
yay. my LOVE.

cheong, the spastic.

OH L-O-V-E.

my accompanion throughout the FO.

MY LOVABLES OF ALL LOVABLES(:

im gg to miss these two spastic guy.

DEXTER's NEW TOY.

OH TOFU TOFU TOFU.

TOFU squeeeeZe.

my fellow boonkeng-er.

APPLE my love.

RAYNA:D

NAME please.

SLEEP pls.

DEXTER and his neww toy.

takglam apple me.

girls(:

TAKGLAM i miss you soo much d oth day(:

DEXTER's new found gf.

KISS his gf(:

hello mr dinosaur(:

i swear im gg to miss all the year threes. esp nic and dex. and yuanlong(:

smile like crazy @ 12:26:00 AM

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Wednesday, April 23, 2008

abit more photos of FO. i think aft this, i better move on to SL camp photos(; hahas.

but same, lazy to sort out photos in order. but this time, more of less, is blogged by day(: hahas. from first day of fow to last day of foc(: i tried my best to make it neat liao. but lazy to touch up the order of photos per day(: hahahas.

apple apple.where are u?

GLS.

FA HAAKIM(:

girls in the toilet.

HGL KAHYUEN. laikah(:

classic of tatyi and charlton

para para.

GO TP GO

GLS LOVE TO FRESHIE.

FINAL CLASH.

you pok my lollipop.

flag makers(: gd job done.

FA(s).

GUCCI EH. takglam prince.

RB(:

reminds me of band days.

last pic of the FO pic post (for now). FOC grp photo(:

smile like crazy @ 11:33:00 PM

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SSM today(:

quite a hassle to dress up for ssm early in the morning.
people were late. and they were chided like hell.
grooming was super strict. nails, hair, shirt, etc.
omg. one word-HELL.
hahas. its like REALLY HELL.
but after hell, it was nice.
we were being introduced to the different equipments for bartending, the cutleries, the saucers, the wine glasses, etc. i think i love being introduced to these little equipments. it keeps me curious at least.
then, it was tray carrying.
omg, fancy carrying a big oval tray over ur shoulders, with bricks on them.
and worst, with 2 big tub of water (from those water dispenser kind).
omg.
round tray was easy(: at least, its sth that i used to carry ard in coffeeclub.
hahas. aft that, it was expo(: FHA. rather fun. considering that i get to see many food and equipments that ive never seen before. but still, im rather disappointed that FHA doesnt exhibit anything that has got to do with hotel industry. at least, touring ard with wanzhen and mingfang was fun. photos will be up after everything else is up(SL camp, chalet, etc).

but , SSM today is tiring, on the whole. my feet hurts.

smile like crazy @ 10:32:00 PM

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when will i ever see you?
because i see you no more.
not even a glimpse. not even a shadow.
where were the words so dear?
where were the words so true?
dear friend.
where are you?
can i bring you back?
with words that i want to say so much.
can i bring you back?
with fear that arise within.
i want to hold your hands.
to tell you what lies beneath my heart.
i want to hold you tight.
to tell you what lies within my mind.
i want to tell you badly.
that i love you.
can i even tell that to you?
with you so far, can i?

smile like crazy @ 8:23:00 PM

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Tuesday, April 22, 2008

venos dinner just now.
oh they just light up my life.
they drive my emo-ness away. at least, for tonight(:

xiaobai, its like PLEASE BELIEVE ME, im not emo tonight. lols.

SSM tomorrow.
im nervous, excited, scared... and simply, scared.
from what i heard from jan, its like hell scary.

anw, i think there's a need to thrash things out. like SOON. because i hvn really been talking to him since the day i emo-ed. and i think i dont like this feeling. i kind of miss talking to you.

smile like crazy @ 10:46:00 PM

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Monday, April 21, 2008

i told myself i was down on my luck ytd, did i?
oh well,im really down.

i screwed my cds appealing. i changed class, without changing timing. like WTH? but it wasnt my fault. it was the system's fault.

lecture was really a waste of time. the lecturer practically went through only the rules and schedules. like omg. SIAN please.

ok. whatever it is, the main point is, im really down on my luck.

can i tell you how i feel?

smile like crazy @ 11:54:00 PM

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some photos for fow and foc.
im sorry that im not sorting them in accordance to day. cos its too tedious to do so. but i did my best in sorting out in fow and foc. however, not ALL photos are uploaded yet. so stay tune for more(:

fow flag(:

squirt squirt. i love them all(:

bev, the sweetest girl(:

fishy ken(:

nat(:

mass dance partner(:

michelle, sweet girl's friend. that makes her sweet too(:

charlton(:

but i prefer him to wear specs to take photo. i think its much cuter that way.

yujuan(:

prisssssssssss(: i love you girl.

cheston, me and scand.

jan, bixia.

fy and me((:

thats the final debrief we had(:

dex&me

caroli(:

BADDDDDD. jolene and me.

CHAOLAO FACE(:

jolene. cheong.

AIAI((: I LOVE HER LIKE HELL.

jel, the para para dancer(:

geraldine.

TAKGLAMMM. i miss you like hell:(

they're the reason why i went for camp(:

hunt-gry with maybelin and hakim.

tatyi's task. staring game.

our hero-charlton(:

OMGGG.

my lovely girl(:

squirt(:

scands.

yeeping, the loveliest FA.

the card that was made for us, and only us GLs.

one word. LOVE.

foc flag.

ice breakers.

CHAI.

they made my venos life a happy one(:

anw, more photos will be up soon.

FOW/FOC.

zilra chalet.

sentosa trip.

SL camp.

venos dinner.

smile like crazy @ 5:18:00 PM

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Sunday, April 20, 2008

i think ive been down lately.

schedules have been clashing.
for instance, i was so looking forward to gg for the interview for HTML tomorrow. but ended up, the htm orientation clashes with deyi's dinner. so i have to gv up being a html.
and next, venos bbq clashes with mrs chee's dinner. and i have to make a choice between one.
and then, my timetable sucks like hell. my lessons end at 5, 6 or even 7pm. like wth.

and i think im pretty bothered by his existence. how?
drug jan! HOW???

bothered. like hell.

and then, all my yr 3 friends are graduatingT.T
people like cheong, dex and yuanlong. although ive known them for less than half a year, they have been my verygoodfriends. esp cheong and dex.
then there's yeeping too. the most wonderful FA that ive ever had.
and then there are my zilra peeps like kai, cy, shawnng.
they are all gg to missed by me lahs.
how's sch gg to be like, how's future camps gg to be like without seeing them.omy.

nevertheless, i hope cheong, dex and yuanlong will still remember being part of our HBclique. lets meet up often okay?
and now that sch's starting, i so hope that HB people will still meet up.
and that venos will have more outings too.
and that porus will have more outings too.
and that zilra will have more outings too.

i think this holidays. wasnt really well spent, in terms of my personal time.
i hvn been meeting up with my dearest girlfriend on earth. seriously, i do miss her like hell. and ive got tons of things to tell her. i miss everything with her. girlfriend, you know i miss you(: and im sry i didnt had time to meet up with you this hols. and im sry we have to wait till the next hols before we can meet up again. but still, i wont forget that you are my dearest dearest dearest nonsensical gf.
i hvn been meeting up with bestie as well.
i hvn met huishan, after 672223347501 years! OMGOD.
and then, i hvn gone blood donation. simply because of the lack of time. and the fact that ive been having sore throat ever since SL camp. till now, im still having a bad cough.
and and, im so sry that i couldnt meet clique d oth day. i miss them all lots(:
at least, val is still my classmate(; and i get to meet her tomorrow(;
vera, ive been seeing her at SL camp and orientation, at least.
lynn, im so sry that i hvn kept in contact with her, ever since the hols started.
keong, im glad that at least, i do see you online.
and lastly, JANICE. im so glad i have you by my side throughout the whole hols. although we'll be in diff class since tomorrow. please promise that you will still be willing to listen to my troubles, and share your troubles with me. please do not let this friendship drift off(: and im really glad to have you as my one and only druggey.
hahas.

but still, im glad that ive gain many new friends during these hols. people like wan, wendy, eileen, jeremy, weixiang, etc(: that is, people from porus(: yays.

and yes, not forgetting my venos freshies. i swear i love them like mad(; be it they're from FOW/FOC. i love them all the same. cos we are all ONE BIG FAMILEEE:D im so looking forward to more venos outings.((: and i promise that photos will be up sooooon. im still trying very hard to edit as fast as i can. hahaas(:

after saying so much, after trying to think so much about other stuffs, im still bothered by him. crap. like hell.

smile like crazy @ 2:17:00 PM

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sentosa-ed with venos people today(: fun on the whole.
emo on the run.

vivo-ed. supposed to eat dinner there. but because we had to rush down to dom's gig. we left without dinnerT.T
cabbed down to home club.
me and jan and gareth dcided not to go in because the entrance fee was alil too steep.
and we went to have our bak ku teh(: yay.

yada yada yada. mrt-ed home with some people(:

and is like porus is meeting up tml. and xiaobai is joining us(: hahhaas.

EMO.
you. you. its because of you.

smile like crazy @ 12:32:00 AM

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Friday, April 18, 2008

Week0 orientation is finally over.
oh the regetta people are skw(:

anw, i think the regetta people rocks(:
we managed to persuade junyang to be our drummer.
and yes, our morale was damn high, esp for the girls' team.

our freshies got 2nd. 1second away from Appliedscience.
girls team got FIRST(:
guys team got FIRST(:

so its like yay, we rock(:
we gave our 4 extra medals away. 1 to nigel. 1 to junyang. 1 to jiamin. and the last, i forgot who.
and once again, business sch rocks(:
we got the best spirited sch.
we got the award for overall winner for olympiad
we got the award for overall winner for regetta
and yes.
we got the BEST SCHOOL(:

like for the FOURTH TIME.
YAY.

it was just pure happiness at that moment.
after that, it was emo-ness at night.

shut up and go away.
dont even bother to talk please.

im tired. im sick.

smile like crazy @ 11:58:00 PM

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Thursday, April 17, 2008

i got to know regetta freshies(:
yays. rock on people.
do your best tomorrow((:

anw, i was damn happy this afternoon when i realised i had my voice back. like TOTALLY(:
hahas. but then this happiness only lasted awhile becos i simply experienced throatpain after dinner. i forgot that i had just recovered, and i went to eat tomyam beehoon. -.- and i ended up being tortured by serious sore throat AGAIN. oman.

i got into 2h07(; same as VALARIE, sihui, sinee, elaine, yiling, mingfang.
yayness((:

but today is still an emo day.

smile like crazy @ 11:43:00 PM

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Wednesday, April 16, 2008

regetta training was fun today. learnt a different strategy(:

but it was tiring.
now, my back and my butt aches like hell.
strangely, my arms dont hurt abit.
(:

nehmind, what matters is my back and butt T.T
lols!
okay, next training would be on the actual day, before regetta. hahas.
im so looking forward to it(:

cup noodle-d today with wan(:
yay. finally i get to eat cup noodles.
hahas.
collected uniform for SSM with sylvia and claudine afterthat.
went tpy to buy shoes.
was supposed to go join porus outing today. but was too tired.
plus im pretty broke alr. lols.

YESSS. tomorrow's week0.
YESS.
tml i'll get to know my new timetable.
YESS. tml's keong's bday.
YESSSSS. tml's VENOS dinner(:

i miss venos people alr.
i miss all the freshies.

smile like crazy @ 6:09:00 PM

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Tuesday, April 15, 2008

SL tea party yesterday(:
fun with porus.
fun with janice.

jan and me joined the regetta team. like omy. its dragonboating to be exact. anw, dragonboating was my desired CCA when i first came to poly. but because of band and tight schedules, i couldnt really convince myself that i was able to commit to such an intensive CCA which have trainings on 4 days per week.
anw, back to the topic. after the teaparty, me sylvia sharp and vera headed to zilra chalet at loyang changi(: damn nice to gather once again as zilra-ians. there were damn many people lahs(: and i even got to meet some new people (zilra people) who i have never met before. hahahas! cui-ness.
funfunFUN. and still fun.
though some unhappy stuff happened. (personal). but yes, i managed to fake a smile over it(:

a lesson learnt, its okay to share beds at chalet with everybody except cy. he practically took over the whole bed, leaving me, kai and another person with no space to sleep at all. lols. i ended up slping on the floor beside weng after one whole night sleeping on the crowded bed. crap.
anw, me, kai, kahyuen and sylvia left with some of the dragonboaters to TP earlier for regetta training.
wah, it was god damn fun. not as tiring as i thought it would be.
but one comment, the life jacket was god damn SMELLY. -.- ok, random-ness.
hahas. training tml again:D
ahh, i hope db is my CCA. opps. i mean, dragonboat. hahas.

after regetta training, me and sylvia rushed down to TM to meet my porus goodfriend, wan(:
okay, we lunched at macs(:
and my goodfriend wan made me cried. boohoo!!
hahas. okays, it wasnt totally his fault that i cried. but... hahas, nvm. its okay alr. WAN, YOU"RE FORGIVEN(: hahas.
badminton was funnnnnnn:D

anw, thanks weng for lending a listening ear just now when i was like complaining and stuffs. hahas.
THANKS. and stop being an emo kid please.
i'll lend you my ears when you need them. so dont emo(:

i think druggey jan 'll be the next to hear all my complains. just simply she's not online now, i cant complain to her T.T

smile like crazy @ 9:42:00 PM

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Sunday, April 13, 2008

ok people.
im back from MY FOW, FOC and SYF2008.

and well, im not going to start blogging anything else before i say this:

DEYI BAND IS OFFICIALLY DECLARED AS THE

BEST BAND OF THE YEAR IN 2008,

TOGETHER WITH BEST DRUM MAJOR AWARD

AND GOLD WITH HONOURS.

ok, i shall get back to this after blogging about FO(;

first thing first, a few of us went over to rayna's house for our own DAY ZERO. and yes, we hyped up ourselves with photos and more photos(:

FOW
den we reported to FOW first day. and me rayna and janice acted as fake freshies among the whole group so as to get to know more freshies better through ice breakers and stuffs.
yada yada yada.

day one, as usual, is just some flag making and some station games. and well, it was alil boring. but, verox was still quite zai de(: hahas.

day two. MASS DANCE. woohoooo. FUNNN, as usual. station games was much more fun. and, till then, the whole of verox, or rather, the whole of venos was DAMMN zai lahs. they were so zai that we love them so much. and we decided to do up a dance for them during performance night. so we prepared the para sakura dance for them. but because of time constraint, we didnt have a chance to present it during the performance night. nevertheless, we asked them to stay back for awhile, and yes, we danced for them. wow, its like jel is our role dancer(:

day three started with water games. and Verox GLs joined them for almost EVERY game, so we were entirely wet. cui away. its like super duper takglam please. hunt-gry was alright. final clash, it was amazing that venos got second for final clash. hahas.

and venos ended FOW with a loud bang, having a position of second in overall. whatsmore, we won the one and only BEST SPIRITED GROUP award:D yays. i love FOW freshies.
And anw, I forgot who was my mass dance partner in fow alr. Hahas.

FOC.
i saw ahmad. oyes, ahmad lookman. hahas. he's in accion though. lols. he's now so tall and fit.
anw, back to the topic. the programs were the same for everyday of FOW.
the only thing that was different, is the people.
i cant really comment much though. hahas.
but i swear i was dammmn HAPPY when i saw the fow freshies at foc's performance night.
and yes, i forgot to mention that mass dance with my foc freshie, MANO, was FUNN.
Then mass dance with weng was fun too.
I had to leave on foc last day because of syf.

SYF DAY
Its like me and Sylvia left at 5 plus in the morning from TP to amk.
We ate breakfast tgt as a whole committee of deyiband.
Blahblahblah.
And at the stadium. Me yanwai and two other helpers somehow got chased away by some PEOPLE whom I not state who is it.
Hahas.
Anw, the band did a fab job. And its like I was seriously proud of them, even before the results were out. And so, after the results, everyone in deyi went crazy with tears of joy. Hugging everybody I see was like.. hahhaas. So funny, because I couldn’t remember who I hugged afterwards.
And. Yes.

Results:

DEYI BAND. GOLD WITH HONOURS.
BEST DRUM MAJOR –JOSHUA TAN from DEYI MILITARY BAND.

BEST BAND OF THE YEAR-DEYI BAND.

HAHHAs.

BEST BAND OF THE YEAR-DEYI BAND.
BEST BAND OF THE YEAR-DEYI BAND.
BEST BAND OF THE YEAR-DEYI BAND.
BEST BAND OF THE YEAR-DEYI BAND.
BEST BAND OF THE YEAR-DEYI BAND.
BEST BAND OF THE YEAR-DEYI BAND.
BEST BAND OF THE YEAR-DEYI BAND.
BEST BAND OF THE YEAR-DEYI BAND.
BEST BAND OF THE YEAR-DEYI BAND.
BEST BAND OF THE YEAR-DEYI BAND.
BEST BAND OF THE YEAR-DEYI BAND.

Omg. I still cant believe that DEYI BAND is officially declared as the best band of the year. Tell me its not a dream. Hahas. My long-last unfulfilled dream have been finally fulfilled already. Yays. THANKS DEYI BAND. I love you all. You guys did a seriously gd job. Now that we are best band, we wont be looked down by TK alr.
I think im gg to stay happy for maybe one whole week? Or maybe 1 whole month!! HAHAS. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
I think I have never been so happy in all my life.

Again, BEST BAND OF THE YEAR-DEYI BAND.

Anw, im starting to miss many people alr.
I miss my venos freshies. (FOW/FOC)
I miss my fellow GLs from venos.
I miss girlfriend.
I miss clique.
Etc etc.

Hahas. Im finally back home:D

photos will be up sooon.

smile like crazy @ 6:36:00 PM

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Sunday, April 06, 2008

six. and soon it'll be cinq quatre trois deux une zero.

god. damn fast.
and its gg to be one day before the actual syf when i next sees them.
im sorry i cant be there the whole week because of FO.
im sorry i cant gv physical support, only mental support.
nevertheless, i hope you people can surprise me, and not shock.
and as like weng said, hope it'll be a happy shock if there's one.

days are nearing and i feel the jittery.
do you?
im beginning to worry about almost everything.
and im still pondering.
to stay or not to stay, i guess this saturday can bring me the answer.

good luck my juniors.
im pinning all hopes on you guys le.

the long awaited day is coming. endure okay?

and another long awaited day for me has arrived. that is, FO. hahas. tomorrow(:
yays.
gg rayna's hse ltr to ton.
and initially intended to come home on wednesday night.
but after dexter's persuasion and stuffs, i decided to pack a bag of 6 days 5 nights. and i still have to bring my warning tee and jeans. LOLS. heavy dumpling.

yays. all the fun is coming(:

smile like crazy @ 4:50:00 PM

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Friday, April 04, 2008

i want to continue learning french. i really want.
okay, its just some random thoughts lahs. but i really want to continue learning and speaking french.

eight more days. its almost seven.
then as i go through FO, it'll be five four three two one.
im feeling jittery.
its as if im in the competition as well.
scary.

j'aime deyiband.
bonne chance.
vous pouvez le faire(:

i miss venos.
i miss my HB clique.
i miss them MANY MANY:D

smile like crazy @ 9:46:00 PM

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Thursday, April 03, 2008

im back from SL CAMP.

one word : FUN

okay. honestly, i was super sian when i first saw the group list. i was in some group named PORUS. and out of SO many names, i only recognised koksheng's and chernron's name. -.- i was like SUPER SIAN lahs.

then it was ice breaking. and i first thought that die le, this group cfm CUI diao.
BUT.
after the ice breakers and everything, porus was like quite bonded. esp after the night activities.

anw, the night activities were like DAMN GROSS.
imagine, stepping on food(rice, veg, meat) , which was your dinner previously. and then kneeling on these food, putting your forehead on these food. like OMG.
and there was this gross station at bizpark. its a station whereby there's a basin of like maggie + syrup+ dunoewhat+dunoewhat +dunoewhat+ chinchow+ ETC. and you have to dip your WHOLE HEAD in to find some listed items, including MNMs. oh damn gross.
then there was the station called the gift from heaven. we were being splashed with soysauce, chinchow, etc etc. you name the food, they have it.
the best station was the one where we were supposed to help each other wash hair, and then collect the foam. its like taking a refresh hairwash after all the soysauce and everything else.
but the bad thing was it was the mud station aft that. we were supposed to crawl on the mud, to find the coins. BUT, i didnt do this station becos it was pitch dark outside the tennis court. and well, i have slight night blindness, so i cant see really well.

okay. so, to sum the day one up, PORUS was ZAI. and. we got first:D
its such a rare chance that a grp can bond together quite well on only the first day. amazing:D

and we went pom-chak pom-chak pom-chak pom-chak to the second day.

but we were quite cui alr, maybe because we used too much energy on the first day.
scroll hunting was nice:D
in-between too. its like deal or no deal? hahhaas.
battle of the sexes was quite boring. but the part whr that guy went to gulp down the foam made by brushing teeths of other people (plus some blood caused by gum bleeding), certainly made many people nauseous. like thats the GROSSiest THING lahs. omg.

nightwalk was horrible for me. simply because i couldnt see a single thing. thats why i freak out easily though i didnt really scream. i freak out not because i was afraid of the looks of the "ghosts", but because of the fact that you do not know when and where would you be grabbed, or harrassed. hahas. and im REALLY THANKFUL to all the porus people who lent a hand to guide me through the walk, esp chernron. hahas. he was whole time letting me hold his arm so that i know where to walk. and at the complete darkness stairs, he even offered to piggyback me down because i couldnt see the steps at all. lols. but well, quite a memorable experience:D hahas.

third day was like... complete cui-ness in the morning because all of us lacked slp. hahas.
but we "WOKE UP" after breakfast, and yep, i guess we did really well at the outside sch station games. hahas.

and i was like the one who's supposed to call and make reservations with the station master. so it goes...

"good morning. is this the station master for (name of station)? i would like to make a reservation for my brother and sister at (time).".

and after the person has cfm the reservation,

"oh, thats great! thank you for your time and attention. Remember to drink more water as it is a hot day. Bye".

lols. two simple sentences, but can be quite stressful when you are in a rush, and you have to say out the whole sentence, without any loopholes.

so anw, GOOD JOB people for the station games:D:D:D

watergames with POSEI was alright.
final clash, as usual, sucks to me. its a game that does NOTHING but, sow discord. lols.

Massdance was as usual, DAMN FUN. Second day was with kok and third day was with cherny.
Business dance was rather cui.

Anw, PORUS got second overall:D like damn ZAI please. Though we were the 2nd to get out of final clash, we still got 2nd in place. Hahas. Porus is ZAI de.
And our BEST SL is. PLEASE CHOOSE ONE(WAN). Haas.

Heart-to-heart talk after everything ended.
Cpf after that.
And poor kok waited for us at TM for ard 2 hours plus.

To sum it all up, SL camp ROCKS my holidays (and of course, next week’s FO will rock too:D).
And.
Porus is zai de.

YAYS. Im so looking forward to next week’s FO with VENOS((:

nine more days people.
i see a miracle coming our way soon.

smile like crazy @ 8:21:00 PM

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