its just XIUZHEN

Monday, June 30, 2008

im still feeling sick with my stomach today):
its like its PAINNNN.

and im so hungry, but i just dont have the appetite to eat.
contradicting, but its true.
its like my stomach is in pain, but im hungry at the same time.
if i eat, the pain will surely be worst.

i couldnt even finish my lunch this afternoon.
and i only ate two spoonful of rice for dinner):

im feeling so so so sick.
mummy offered to bring me to the docs. but i shall see how first.
i hate doctors like i hate cats.
):

lessons seemed long today. prolly because i was dying to get it over and done with and then come home to rest. hahas.
i guess no jogging for me tml, liling. i doubt i can make it, with my given state now.
sorry partner.

anw, i cant believe jason is doing lion dance! HOHOHO. i seriously cant believe it when treddy told me about him meeting jason for LION DANCE. i cant imagine apple's laoda doing lion dance! SO WEIRD lah cann.

APPLE. two more days to ur birthday lehh(:

when all else seemed wrong, i thought you were right.
it seemed that you were wrong too.

smile like crazy @ 7:45:00 PM

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Sunday, June 29, 2008

this is CHEONG's work(;
i agree with him when he says he went to the wrong course.

DESIGNER CKM presents:

would you get the clouds from the sky for me?

smile like crazy @ 7:45:00 PM

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ive got a tummy upset today
not really diahoerrea kind though.
but its just i'll get a tummy ache after a meal.
or actually, even when i hvn even eaten anything):

anw, i met fy to study today at hougang macs.
actually is just to chiong my TTO project, and pick up afew words from the glossary list for my SSM test this wednesday.
but stupid fy refuses to do his work. which makes it a less fruitfl study trip for him.
i didnt really concentrate too because i had a tummy ache just now.
until now, my dinner is placed infront of me, but i just dont have the mood to eat anything):

COUNTDOWN TO APPLE DEARIE's birthday: 3 more days(;
countdown to dexter's enlistment: 10 more days):

i think apple is so poor thing. her attachment is like killing her alr. let august fast fast come, den she can leave amara, and be freed of those stupid stuffs that are piling up on her right now. im so sorry dearie that i cant help you out today because i really had to do my projects. you know i'll work if i can. hahas(: anw, im always here if you need someone to listen to your rattlings about EVERYTHING(; I LOVE APPLE DEARIEEE:D

and i miss fion and jolene cannnnn. so long since we last met up and talked.

scandjan too. i miss you too:D

anw, had a small disagreement with treddy just now. but not really disagreement, just some debating. i think cab fare is a waste of money, and we should always try to be punctual. he says cab fare is just an hour's pay and he can always work one more hour to cover up the fare. then i say its still waste of money. then he says cab saves time. and time equals money. so actually, there's no win or lose. and then, i was lazy to argue back alr. cos wasnt in the mood. lols.

eric was irritating ytd. he kept saying ive gotten myself a new and coolish tattoo on my thigh (my wound). SINGAPORE M'SIA INDONESIA. what a stupid joke lahh.

whats today supposed to be?
where was that.....

smile like crazy @ 6:52:00 PM

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work-ed today.
total cuiness from 12-12. maybe because ive lack of slp last night? and i had to wake up at 7am in the morning today for meeting-.-
lols.
CUI TO THE MAX.
anw, work was super tiring today):
i cant believe jason put me as IC today-.- im so inexperienced in wedding banquets pleaseeeee.
this is only my second time for wedding banquet, though there were many other dinners and events ive worked for. but then. for weddings, its only the second time! and they actually put me as IC when i dont even know how to debone a fish-.-
cui to the maxxxxx.
it was simply so tiring to manage 6 tables just now, when i couldnt find all my service staffs): (they were most prolly at the back lane eating). hahahaas. and i even had a missing fish just now! its like henry took an extra fish, and there i was, looking frantically for my fish! lols. come to think of it, i must have looked super stupid just now. and then, luckily i wasnt down for OT(: yayy.
but then, i still reach home ard 1 plus because of all the stupid paper work and all.
i die also dont want to work tml pleaseeeee.

YAWNS.

smile like crazy @ 2:10:00 AM

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Thursday, June 26, 2008

FINALLY MET UP WITH CHEONG KENG MUN TODAY FOR BREAKFAST(:
like YAYYS.
its so nice to see his himbotic face again.
:D

project meeting-ed in sch.
chatted with feiyong too:D
i think he's really sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet to ------
LOLS.

it seemed to stop right there.
thereafter...
i want to...
but you wont know.

why isit that i dont get sth that cheers me up?

its so unfair):

smile like crazy @ 7:27:00 PM

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Wednesday, June 25, 2008

SSM TODAY(;

FUNNN:D

outdoor sales with partner elaine was super duper fun cann(:
we both managed to sell a total of $260. just the both of us.
yayy.
I LOVEE HER LAH(:

and i cant wait to meet cheong for breakfast tomorrow:D
its been so long since i last saw his himbotic face.
LOLS.

its funny how my heart wont let go.

smile like crazy @ 7:57:00 PM

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Monday, June 23, 2008

BREAKFAST WITH CHEONG ON THURSDAY MORNING IS A MUST(:

smile like crazy @ 11:56:00 PM

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BESE project is OVER.
presentation is OVER(:

congratulations, xiuzhen. one project down alr(:

oh oh, anw, my blister on my thigh right? it had pus today. EEK. so gross. but then, the blister is still there, perhaps smaller ABIT cos some pus leaked out? all my classmates were "FASCINATED" by my burnt.
and liling and co. is persuading me to go see a doc.
and they all told me amara should compensate me. LOL.
so i randomly msged apple and treddy to ask them whether amara provides medical compensation. HAHAHAS.
i think its so impossible pls.
and then.

im working on saturday 12pm(: wheeee (dont think i skip band okay? THIS WEEK NO BAND)
not on sunday though, because i need time for myself you know!
i cant possibly be studying and working everyday.
i need some shopping and relaxation(;
yepp.

i think time passes so freaking fast.
now, its alr JUNE, near JULY. soon, exams will come, and then semester 1 will end. lols
i think im OLD alr):
hais.
in just 6 more months, im gg to be EIGHTEEN.
(:

anw.
friends, can you all console me there wont be any scar on my thigh, instead of scaring me will have?
HAHAHAS.
i need some consolation.
i really dont want to have any ugly patches on my thigh):

smile like crazy @ 8:16:00 PM

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Sunday, June 22, 2008

oh im really tired.
ive got like so much stuffs to do):
band compilation, DRILLS and gimmicks. omy.
i barely started anything on my list after d oth time. im stuck.
):

and then, i managed to finish my BESE project alr.
rehearsed for my stupid presentation tml alr too.
but there's still so much to be done.

im still deciding wheth to work next week.
i need to work to save money for netherlands trip. i really really want to go.
but then, like this, i have to sacrifice my studying time on sundays to work-.-
i got a negative feeling about it. i think i wont be able to cope well.
):

tell me if i should contd working.
how come im not a superwoman like apple?
she can work nonstop everyday.
then still go drinking last night!, sleep at 4 plus 5am last night, and then, wake up at ard 10am this morning,and then go to work at 12pm!
i think she's a superwoman lah.
treddy is worst. he can go on without sleep for DAYS.

can i dont sleep as well?
);

and then, im still so worried about my burnt.
the blister is as big as ever, or even bigger than ytd. omggg.

dar jol, im tired in that sense too.
you know what i mean.
anw, jiayou.
three fingers, cannot be three tragic. me and fion alr two tragic alr.
GO GO GO(:

stay the same?
i dont know.

smile like crazy @ 4:22:00 PM

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Im super tired cann):

I slept ard 5 last night because of projects and stuffs. And im so really tired now.
Well, breakfast with nic cheong is cancelled because of the wet weather, we cant have our prata): I so miss cheong cannn.
Its like I went to nic chen’s BBQ last night, just for the sake of meeting cheong. But then, he couldn’t make it last minute lah. PS me! Grrr. But then, nvm, we must meet up soon alright?!
BBQ last night was alright(: thanks nic chen for organizing it:D but then, your house abit far ah. Hard to travel home lehh.

So anw, ive been working for the past three consecutive days on wed, thurs and Friday.
TIRING ah.
But then, im glad I got to earn some money for my Netherlands trip before the end of my hols(: (though the trip is yet to be approved)

Anw, ive got super bad burn on my right thigh): happened during work on Friday. I was using the steam iron to iron the table cloths. Then because it was too long, so I squatted down to iron the bottom part, and this was when the iron went crazy and dripped water on my thigh): and then, my thigh was scalded! And then, it had an infection because I didn’t apply any cream on it until 9 hours ltr. -.-
But then, its weird that this burn does not look like its caused by hot water lah.
Cos normally hot water will just give you a patch of red colour.
MINE, is like really BURNT.
Three spots on my thigh, each around the size of my thumbprint. Damn freaking ugly cann): and then, im just so scared there’ll be a scar lah. Ogod.
And out of the three spots, there’s a SUPER BIG blister on the middle one. It looks as if its gg to burst the next moment. Ahhh):

MOODY because of the burnt on my stupid thigh.
):

but thanks scandjan, melissa, fy and all for the concern of my burnt ytd night during the BBQ.(:

smile like crazy @ 1:16:00 PM

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Tuesday, June 17, 2008

i miss them. <3

smile like crazy @ 5:24:00 PM

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this is what i want to go up to.

this is whr i want to scream.

ive got no time to catch up with my lovable lolli(s).
so many of them.
esp my one and only girlfriend.
):

smile like crazy @ 2:06:00 PM

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the aftermath of yesterday is swollen eyes.

project meeting today.
im so not in the mood for projects lah.
anw, destress at town just now with apple and fy.
MUDPIE-d(:
I SO LOVE MY MUDPIES(:
and, kannan is SUPER MISSED<3
gobal too.
and i heard JO is BACK, and RIZDUAN IS G.O.N.E. GONE. hahahas!
damn happy to hear that he isnt working there ANYMORE. like this, i can go back as and when i want to visit jo and the rest(; wheeeee.
so, mudpie really cheered me up a lil(:

shopped ard.
and i bought a tube dress.
the one i saw d oth day, with druggey.
didnt buy the black white floral one though. alil too expensive. might have to save up more first(;
and then, it was pastamania with fion apple larry and fy.
HAM AND SAUSAGE BAKED RICE, MY LOVEE(:
with lots of cheese of course.

and then. yada yada. and im now at home, projecting.

YAWNS.

dexter'll be enlisting in july, 9th.
im so gg to miss my tall goodfriend please.
he's the tallest among all my goodfriends lah.
and he refuses to let us see his shaved head, so he says he's gg to shave just one day before he books in.
oh stupid dexter ng zhong hong. we shall wait till ur first bookout then.

and i dont know why. but i miss nicholas cheongkm's WHY HUH, and his himbotic acts.
sometimes, i think he's one of the best listener in town(:
but i hvn been seeing him online lately because he's working):
WHY HUH? WHY YOU WORKING???

bring me balloons now, and i'll love you like mad.i want colourful ones so that they'll color my life(:

can someone bring me up to this singapore flyer?
i so want to go up(:

will you bring me up on the flyer?

smile like crazy @ 1:11:00 AM

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Sunday, June 15, 2008

went to clifton's cremation today.
with sylvia, we reached the wake at ard 11.
the first thing when i reached there, was to tell myself, not to cry infront of da tou.
but when alan brought us to his coffin,
i merely took a look, and i didnt bear to look again a second time.
i turned away and tears started flowing down my cheek.

all his relatives, all his friends were there.
and then.
while we were standing there, different grps of people arrived.
and all the while, we wept now and then.
it was simply uncontrollable, when we can easily see the collages of him on the pilars.
it was simply hard not to wept for him.
and then.
we even sang the TP school song.
you know, the TP song, its usually sang in a super cheery way, with everyone dancing and jumping around.
but just now, today, the song was only for him.
it was sang with feelings that we can never expressed to him in words.
all we wanted to tell him was, he'd always be with us, no matter where he is right now.
and yes, of course, singing the song for him made everyone wept even more.
his mum's speech was touching. esp the part whr she say she's proud of clifton to have so many brothers and sisters who care for him, and that he'll be very happy if he knows.
i think his mum is very strong. to try to stay calm, to try to hold back her tears, was really hard for her, but yet, she did it when she gave her speech.

then some military people came.
and wrapped his coffin with the singapore flag.
we should all be proud of him.
he's gotten the wings he want.
and he's now a pilot. our pilot.

but to see the coffin being carried away, it just breaks our hearts even more.

then at mandai.
the SAF band played for him.
guns of honour were shot for him.
we were really really proud.

then at the viewing hall.
was the cremation.
i didnt even bear to look.
i turned away.
all his family members were saying "JIAHAO. HAO HAO SHANG LU"
but i just couldnt bear to see anything that was happening.
everyone was crying their hearts out at this moment.
i just dont know what to do, but really weep for him.

and now, my eyes are as swollen as like a goldfish's.
and my head hurts after so many hours of weeping.

its sad to think about whatever happened today.
but i just cant help it.
its not sth i can control.

maybe we should not weep anymore.
because we should really be proud of our dearest friend, clifton lam jia hao.

Dearest 大头 Clifton Lam Jia Hao,

im proud of you. we're all proud of you.
you've gotten the wings you dreamt of for all your life.
i know, you're still with us.
its just that you're nearer to the clouds.
the clouds that planes are near to.
we all know, you'll always be with us.
to see so many people there with me today,
it just makes me feel really happy for you.
for i know everybody, everyfriend of yours, would remember you dearly for who you are, and what you once did to change our lives.
thank you, for being my zilra FA.
thank you, for letting me be in your last empire before you graduate from temasek polytechnic.
as we've sang the song for you,
temasek's me, temasek's you.
we're a team.

we'll always be a team.
no matter where you are right now.

you know we all love you, clifton.

大头，大头，
下雨不愁。
Zilra 有雨伞，
Clifton 有大头。

zilra will always love you(:

smile like crazy @ 10:14:00 PM

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so many things are running through my mind.

through this incident, i really really learnt many things, thought through many stuffs.
you know, we always say we treasure friendships and all, we treasure everything around us, but we dont really 100% mean it everytime, everyday. we often push things to tommorrow, thinking there's still a tomorrow and all. and soon, all would be accumulated into big piles of things to do, and then, we will come to regret if we can never have a chance to finish up the task.
i was telling wan that i really really really treasure every friendship more, such that i really feel like telling all my beloved friends that I LOVE THEM and all. i know im speaking nonsensical stuffs, but thats what i really feel.

i went to the web just now, search for clifton's name. and there was a whole chunk of links that mentioned his name and all. people wrote about him, dedications and all. it just made me sad again that ive lost such a wonderful FA, a friend.
i think from now, i really shouldnt live with regrets.
from now on, i'll do whatever i perceive is correct and rightful to myself.
then at least, i wont feel that ive not done well enough.

girlfriend, i say this almost everytime, that I LOVEEEE YOU. and i really meant it. i CANNOT imagine a day without you. i swear i'll rather die with you than see you die before me..

TO EVERY FRIEND OF MINE, I LOVE YOU.

smile like crazy @ 1:04:00 AM

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Saturday, June 14, 2008

so many things have happened.

first thing first, i think i have to dedicate this post to my dearest zilra FA, clifton lam.
you know we all love you, and we'll always miss you.
rest in peace, for your soul will always be with us.
we love you.

then again, i had work for the past two days. yesterday and today.
yesterday was work with druggey(;
there was only a total of 8 service staffs, handling nine tables.
it was funnn(;
but work ended ard 12.30 and it was almost 2 when i reached home.
oh bother.

i had to wake at 6 plus today for i was working the 8am shift.
and omg, guess what?
me and liling broke records seh.
we started wiping and polishing wine glasses from 8am-12am!!! mind you, its a total of 15 hours!(16 hours-1 hour of lunch + dinner).
and i swear we polished like THOUSANDS of glasses.
our hands have blisters nowT.T
the two of us were so tired, but then again, it was fun to have liling ard(;
so actually, today was alright, just that there were times when we were reallllyyyy tired. hahas!
nvm, im alil richer now because of the extreme hours.
and i thank god i didnt chose to work OT. because im aching all over nowT.T
it was nice to know more friends.

but no matter how many new friends i made, i would never forget you, clifton, my dearest FA.

smile like crazy @ 2:03:00 AM

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Thursday, June 12, 2008

life is unpredictable.

smile like crazy @ 1:45:00 AM

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oh i went shopping with druggey today(;
at town.

IM SO SUPER HAPPY because i met my tissue jolene there(;
YAYY.

and IM SO SUPER HAPPY that i get to shop with druggey.
and yes, i managed to buy a hoodie cardi and a bikini(;
i so wanted to buy the black white floral tube dress lah. but hell, the price is alil too steep. thats why i didnt buy it in de end. maybe i should decide on another day because i REALLY like it(;

yay. im working tomorrow(:

smile like crazy @ 12:07:00 AM

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Wednesday, June 11, 2008

for the very few times in my life.
im so lazy to edit the photos because FHA have too manyyyyyy photos to be uploaded.
and nowadays, blogger needs a long time to upload them.
and then, if i go edit them, it'd take even longeerrrrr.

smile like crazy @ 10:49:00 PM

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Tuesday, June 10, 2008

met up with my dearest dearest dearest fion for lunch(:
jolene ah jolene, our MONTHS of friendship, tgt with fion, cannot match up as 1WEEK hor?(((:
hahas, but we forgive you lah(:

but we still managed to meet up with jolene for awhile in school(:
YAY.
the both of them are really really really my ultimate happy pills:D
and i LOVE them like shit(:

fion dearest, cheer up okay? you still have me and jolene(: we all love you(:
jolene darling, goody for youuuu(: must still love us alright?
and thanks jol, for always being with me when my tears are down.
i love you like i love my tissues i swear.
the three of us, no matter what, cannot drift away okay?

then yes, i bade them goodbye before heading off to TM to meet sylvia.
then we went for the job interview.
oh i HATE the cargo lift.
it was SUPER FREAKING SCARY AND CREEPY AND OMGGGG.
to think we had to go up, then down, then up, and then down and then up again! because the two lifts lead to different corridors and we went to the wrong side. and OMG lah. the both of us simply freaked out in the lift. lols. so the interview went well, now we just have to wait for training.

yada yada yada.
today is a tired day.

I LOVE MY DEARESTS LOTS(:

Anw, my duty roster for SSM is OUT!
AND I LOVE IT LIKE HELL(:

c/s
sw/s
w/s
w/t
bar/t
h/t
csh/t
cpt/t

and my test is on the week when im a bar T.T thats alil sad cos i wan to be bartender lah! but then, i guess the test will only take a while lah(;
and a pity i dont get to experience the job of a runnerT.T
hahas.
anw, i have my partner elaine lee ming rong for the same position EVERY WEEK except the one whr im the hostess. lols.
I LOVE PARTNER ELAINE(:
yayy.
actually, i miss ssm.
oyes, im crazy. say i am, because i really miss ssm):

smile like crazy @ 8:11:00 PM

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class outing today(;
though turn out rate was much lower than expected. but it was still FUN. FUN FUN FUN(:

slacked at macs at first.
rent bicycles(; 3 hours for just 5BUCKS. worthy right?(: yayy.
so we cycled to the very end whr we can see the airplanes and all. took photos on the way.
jumpshots esp(; even video of our cui jumpshots. lols.
after the three hours of intensive cycling, we went to this jap cafe and settled our dinner.
then we made our way to parkway parade.
i so wanted to buy my cotton on shorts just now! but they just dont have my size. their sizes were wayyyyy too big for me lah. okay, nvm. i shall go shopping elsewhere for my shorts.

shopping with my classmates were super duper nice:D
me and elain even have plans for next week too! we're gg to find a day to go tanning, shopping and eating and even tonning!:D lols. hopefully, there'll be time for us to do so.

ivan is so funny just now. he was on his way home with me, when his friend gave him a call. and yada yada yada. and he talked about gg pasir ris. which i tot was for tml. then he sent me to my doorstep, and he u-turned back to the bus stop. WHY? because he's gg to go pasir ris for movie like JUST NOW. omg. cui diao. he hasnt been home for three nights alr. he btr dont make tonight the fourth one. hahas.
then andy did many stunts today with his bike. like gg towards the bushes, almost felling down, clapping while riding his bike which caused him to skid. hahahas. damn funny(:

alright. cycling at fast speed do make the troubles go with the wind(;
i love it.
if only i stay near east coast park, i'd go there cycle whenever i have some stuffs. hahahas.

and im glad i cleared it up with serene, and thank god, she wasnt referring to me. oh YAY(:

im meeting fion and jolene for heart to heart talks tml in the afternoon.
its been so long since i last saw them. I MISS THEM THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSS MUCH i swear(;

then im gg for a job interview tml with sylvia, for some UOB credit card promoter thing. lols.

then im working amara this thurs, friday and sunday.
work comes top priority now compared to any other stuffs.
(:

i miss all my lovable lollipops like apple, druggey, jol, scandjan, fion, fongyung, cheong, dexter, GIRLFRIENDDDD, etc. i miss them all.

smile like crazy @ 12:17:00 AM

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Monday, June 09, 2008

its like almost 2am, and im still not aslp.
it aint because im busy or whatsoever, its just, i cant get to slp with so many things on my mind.

scandjan, im really worried that what we think is true. is she really refering to me? i dont know. but i guess i'll ask her tml if she's online.

one thing after another.
how can i ever get through this, without the care and concern from my dearest ones?
so thanks scand and darling jol. you girls rock like hell:D

and maybelle darling, cheer up(: you know im always here for you. i can always offer a listening ear. too bad i dont own a lj.

anw, i was thinking of switching to lj because it has functions like entry locking. but come to think of it, all my closestfriends who have entry to my wp dont own lj accounts. girlfriend, scand, druggey, fion and darling jol, they are all using blogger! hahas. so i prolly have to psycho them to switch first, before i do myself(: HAHHAS.

alright, actually, im just rattling on nonsensical stuffs because i dont know what else i can do now.

smile like crazy @ 1:48:00 AM

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Sunday, June 08, 2008

shopping plans for today were cancelled.

dont mention anything about it.

and i went to shengsiong with mummy just now. and for the shock of my life, i nearly thought i saw fifteenyrsstrangers. but thank god, it wasnt him. HAHAS(:
alright, off to watch other online movies.

scandjan/druggey/jol/fion, you girls can read up about the happenings at the you-know-it account(:

smile like crazy @ 4:36:00 PM

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just did my part of the stupid itinenary, which is part of TTO and geogtravel project. tough luck. i got the hardest DAY-THREE. its the hardest because we didnt define what was to be included in day 3 cos we got no more ideas for it. and i had to be so down on my luck to kena day 3. LOLS. but anw, did tons of researches just now so as to fill up day 3 itinenary(: and im glad im just left with one more slot in day 3 unfilled.

so weng passed me all his luck d oth day. and then i wanted to RETURN him his luck the following day. den at first he say no need, but later on, he needed them because of his loafers sole. so i returned him half because i had a scalded finger, so i needed extra luck too. alright, this is stupid.

OH you know what? HAKIM ROCKS (:
my pm was originally WOULD YOU BRING ME UP FOR BUNGEE JUMP?
then he say, "i will bring u to reverse bungee instead"
HAHAS. so cute lah!
so i changed my pm to WOULD YOU BRING ME TO REVERSE BUNGEE JUMP?
anw, fyi, reverse bungee jump is the one at clarke quay(:
expensive leh. i just did some research on it because its part of my project-.-
but anw, HAAAAKIM rocks my socks:D

jolene rocks too, because she always listens to my rattlings. just like how i am complaining to her now(: thanks darling.

smile like crazy @ 1:34:00 AM

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Saturday, June 07, 2008

banded.

oh i was like a walking corpse this morning. fancy waking up at 6.15 for both yesterday and today morning. ogod. i should have slept earlier last night lahhh.
alright. today is kind of moody day. perhaps because of the lack of sleep or maybe its because of the wet weather? i dont know, but i just dont feel the reason to feel right.
and because of this moody moody mood, i decided to walk home from the station to my house instead of taking a bus just now. i was so tired alr, but i still decided to walk home, perhaps because walks and bus rides alone always helps me to think through of many many stuffs, allowing me to have a clearer mind and all. but i guess the walk home just now wasnt enough to let my thoughts run through my mind because i aint feeling any better, but still feeling moody. and the weird thing is, i dont even know why im feeling so moody lahh.

i want to go on roller coaster rides
i want to go for bungee jumps
i want to go for jogs
will you come with me?

alright. ON A LIGHTER NOTE, im gg shopping tml. perhaps i'll feel better after buying new topsss((:

smile like crazy @ 9:18:00 PM

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Friday, June 06, 2008

would you, one day, bring me to bungee jump?
would you, one day, hold my hand as tight as i would like to hold yours?
would you, one day...

smile like crazy @ 11:17:00 PM

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PROFFIENCY TEST is over(:
like FINALLY.
oh it sucks somehow.
prolly because i scalded my finger during CLEARING station, and NOT SERVING STATION.
so, its not my fault lah.
i didnt knew i could request for a change of plates during clearing. nobody told me:(
so yes, i had to endure clearing my four dinner plates with my finger burning below the plates.
oh bother. and because i was too focused on my stupid finger, i missed out my side plate's protocol. oh sucks like shit right? T.T
yah. so other than that, i guess the only stupid thing i did was to crumb down from the guest's right side when i was supposed to crumb down from the left lah.
odear. but anw, its over lahh(:
so YEP.(:
anw, was supposed to meet fy and larry at town aft that. but because i was too lazy and because i have to do some projects, i came home, with hope i will get some work done. but yes, as expected, i came home and i slacked throughout. scand jan came my house to slack with me too(: we watched HIDE AND SEEK online.
hahas. NICE SHOW(:

thanks people for your luck lah(;
iansoon, druggey, weng, etc(:
THANKS HUH(:
return you all your luck:D

when the hols gets too bored.

smile like crazy @ 8:04:00 PM

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Thursday, June 05, 2008

i bought the top that was selling at max and more d oth day(:
the checkered one:D
woots. im loving it(:

shopping with mingfang was NICEE.
though ivan and reuben joined us afterthat. but they were fun to be with too lah(:
i loveeee shopping datesss:D

Proffiency test tml.
wish me luck lah PLEASE.
i need lots of luck i think.
SET THE TABLE, SERVE THE WINE, SERVE THE FOOD, CLEAR THE TABLE.
c'mon xz, u've done all these before in coffeeclub and also while practise time in toptable. YOU CAN DO IT LAH.
people, WISH ME LUCK and i'll love you like mad(: YAYY.

smile like crazy @ 10:23:00 PM

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People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.
These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
Continue this game by sending it to other people!

and so, I was tagged by girlfriend and druggey to do this quiz(:

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
i'd want prolly want to kill him first, but not to, because i dont want to be jailed. then maybe, i'll ignore him for the rest of my life.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
to participate in next yr's world marching band competition in netherlands(:

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
Romantic kind(; can be anywhere, but as long as its romantic will do i guess.

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
a lil i guess. because there's no tourism degree in singapore.-.-

5. What's your ideal lover like?
macho, tanned and tall(; but as ive answered in the previous quiz, i think as long as he's nice, it'll do(:

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
i think both is equally blessed(:

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
for as long as i can(:

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
ehh. i think i'll be really sad, but i'll still bless them anw(:

9. Is there anything that's made you unhappy these days?
YES. TONNES.

10. Is being tagged fun?
hmm. alright lah.

11. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
working adult(: with maybe a family i hope?

12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
my family and friends of course(: esp my MUM, my grandma and my girlfriend(:
okay, dont say i bias and loves my mum more than i do for my dad. its because i usually spend more time with my mum lahh. (; human nature okay?.

13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
ehh. both are the nicest people on earth.
my girlfriend is the dumbest gf i can ever find on earth too, but yet, she's the loveliest, prettiest, nonsensical gf that i love the most(:
druggey is the nicest person who always stands by me(;
YAYY.
i love them both lahh.

14. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
ehh. married but poor i supposed(:
i believe in true happiness that money cannot buy.

15. What's the first thing you do every morning?
hear my mum's voice through my phone. because she always gives me morning call(:

16. Would you give it all in a relationship?
do u mean commitment wise? YES OF COURSE I WILL.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
perhaps the one who makes me happier? but i doubt this will ever happen. but then again, this kind of things, is unpredictable yea?

18. What type of friends do you like?
ehh. friends who love me(:

19. What type of friends do you dislike?
ehh. hypocrites i guess.

20. If given the chance to turn back time, will you?
nope. because i think ive live life to the fullest that i can ever have. and yes, i should not have too many regrets(;

21. What is the last thing you would do before you die?
sign a will to donate all my healthy organs to charity, and then make sure i do get to spend a day with total and ultimate happiness with my loved ones(:

okay, DONE.
anw, i want to tag people to do.
but the two person i want to tag to do, has alr tagged me to do it. so how?
so, i shall not tag. because i want to go slp alr.. its 2am alr!! YAWNS(:

smile like crazy @ 1:38:00 AM

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Wednesday, June 04, 2008

shopped with fy and larry ard ps and vivo today.
no clothes, no anything.
just mere shopping ard shops.
we spent a great deal of time at the "IQ" shop which sells many IQ stuffs.
hahas!
bus journeys were long today too.
65 was LOVED by us today. we took 65 from boonkeng to ps. and then 65 from town to HARBOURFRONT. and then 65 from harbourfront to boonkeng agn.
hahas.

im still feeling abit sick today.
migraine is better though(:

Tall Short Fat Thin.
Left Width Height Right.
you know what i mean.

smile like crazy @ 11:10:00 PM

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photos for meetup with lydiatanminghui(:
oh im not gg to upload ALL the photos because we look like total retards in those we took in the mrt. omy omy. tragic to the max.

lydiatanminghui is my sec one SECOND FRIEND(first was gy)(and ignoring the fact that szeying was same primary sch as me).
me her and gy became the best of friends(; the threesome.
we spent four years of recesses tgt though we were in diff classes during sec 3 and 4.
we spent birthdays tgt most of the time.
i can go online and nudge her as and when i want.
and yes, she's my cute sweety pie.
meet-up with her, certainly made my days a happier one.
thanks lyd:D u're LOVEE.

smile like crazy @ 12:39:00 AM

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Tuesday, June 03, 2008

anw, had project meeting this afternoon. and yes, after projects were done, i was fiddling with my keyboard about what to type for my personal message. so my dearest mingfang did this:

then i added in LIKE REAL behind her "i love mingfang":

and yes, i got HELL from her. she loves to tickle me like shit. HMPH.
so anw, i changed it to MINGFANG LOVES ME, more than i love her.
and before i enter it, wanzhenzhen added the last part.

HAHA. i got such cute classmates/project grpmates(;

you know, as ive mentioned before i think, i think i have a bomb in my brain; my head.
it can explode almost anytime it wants.
migraine come and go as it pleases, without invitations and all.
and its always the left side which is the more severe one.
it feels so weird with only one side of your head containing a bomb, while the other side, completely fine.
and you know when you've migraine, the whole freaking head of yours would hurt as well. even your teeth, your cheekbone, and your mouth would hurt as though they too have a tiny bomb in them.
ive been having migraine the whole day alr, but yes, i managed to surpress it because today's migraine is a minor one(: yes, im glad it is.
and i dont know why, but my tummy had ached the whole day too. a weird ache i would say. never sth that ive ever experience before. omy.
i think im gg to die, even before the world reforms in 2012.
o dear. o many many dear.

SAVE ME.

smile like crazy @ 8:27:00 PM

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shopped today ard fareast for awhile(:
saw this top(:
DIEE. i love all the topssss. but then im pretty brokeT.T

there's a job offer for this saturday and sunday. but i cant make it for both daysT.T
as usual. i have band on saturday; and sunday is MY SHOPPING DAYYY.

smile like crazy @ 8:14:00 PM

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Monday, June 02, 2008

some random thing i did in class d oth day(:

my table lamp(:

did some shopping with LYDIATANMINGHUI just now at PS.
and its like so SUPER niceeee(:
i saw THREE tops that i like. and im planning to buy them on sunday(:

The first pic is if i wear it normally, while the second one is if i clipped it so that it is not as flairry. hahas(:

I LIKE THIS PINK TOP. and it's ONLY 10BUCKS.

Actually, im still deciding between THIS top and the previous yellow flowery top. TELL ME which is nicerrrr.
i like this top for its top part while i liked d oth one too. AHH. tell me which is nicer pleaseee.

actually, all three tops are all only TENBUCKS(:
woohooooo.

im loving shopping(:
nice meet up with lydiatan too.
had chitchats with her.
and she bought shorts too. and she thinks the flowery top is nicer than the plain yellow one.
hahas(:

OYES. tml no gimmicks meeting(: WOOHOOOOOOOO.

another day free:D

smile like crazy @ 10:36:00 PM

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Sunday, June 01, 2008

bestfriend is cfm leaving for taiwan university alr; her results are out.
oh girl, im sooo gg to miss you cann.

thanks kukuimp for trying to make me understand that what she needs is a smile from her friends. thanks for consoling me and listening to what happened in my friendships. HAHA. i hope u'll get over ur emo stuffs too soon.

and JOLENE DARLING. oh u rock to the max. im so happy for u and 1week. so sweet can(:
and thanks for whatever u've done too:D
i promise to be strong(: so dont worry alright?

and shawntan sucks for lying to me about him being sad.
to think that i tried to console him lah! GRR.

i need my happy pills.
where are you?

smile like crazy @ 10:39:00 PM

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it feels so weird that there's nth for me to study for accts paper-.-
even druggey agrees with me. hahas.

monday: accounts paper @ 3pm; dinner with LYDIATAN @ 6.30pm.
tuesday: project meeting @ 12pm; gimmicks meeting @ 7pm
wednesday:
thursday:
friday: Proffiency test @ 9am
saturday: band as usual
sunday: shoppinggg.

who has recommendations for part time jobs that i can work during the 2 weeks of hols?
pls tell meeee.
(:

i cant wait to meet lydia tomorrow(: hahas.

and drug jan, im waiting for my applessss from NTUC.
hahas(;

im sorry girlfriend, for being so paranoid.
i love you all the same.
please promise not to be angry or affected alright?
lets meet up real soon.
ive got so much things to tell you.
ive got so much things to listen to from you.
as ive mentioned before, we must smile and talk and listen to our loved ones before.
so quickk, after your exams. date me.
i dont care whether its my project period or not, just date me outtt.(:
and im so "angry and irritated" by the fact that our hols are diff timings. oh bother.

and SUPER SORRY to kukuweng for changing my mind about dinner tonight.
and thanks for the initial thought of accompanying me for dinner.
cos i thought u were lazy to get out of your house.so i didnt want to trouble you. that was why i told you i'd settle my own dinner instead of eating out with you. sorrryyyy. dont angry alright?:D
shopping date sooooon. (:
thanks anw, friend(:

smile like crazy @ 5:02:00 PM

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